This one is for you,
You know who you are. You are there to help anyone at the drop of a hat. You will stay up all night talking to a friend who is struggling even though you haven't slept well at all that week and you have an exam the next morning. You're everyone's go-to person. You survive and thrive off of helping others.
However, there's this part of you that gets ignored because you spend so much time worrying about everyone else and putting their needs in front of yours, you often just shove all your problems under a rug until you can deal with it on your own.
Caring for everyone besides yourself often leaves you feeling so alone in this big world. This leads to scenarios when someone comes up and says "Oh my! I got invited to this!" and it is either in the moment of hanging out with them or simply when you originally had plans. You just want them to be happy no matter what that does for you that you tell them "oh yeah it's okay if you want to go!". And because you gave them permission to go, you are left all alone and feel unwanted. All you could ever want is to hear, "No! I'd rather spend time with you". Or if you are sick or wanting to sleep, you will suffer through a headache while your family is being as loud as they can be because you don't want to ruin their fun.
So you sit there and allow yourself to be everyone's mat to walk all over and you have a hard time believing that there actually is someone who truly values you or cares for you. But in reality, you've allowed this. Far too often your efforts of being there for everyone and selflessness go unrecognized and it's lonesome because there's no one to be that for you.
But you are loved and valued so much by those around you they just don't know how to show you their appreciation and that's okay because then it teaches you to be more vocal for your own needs.
Self-care is important and always putting yourself last often leaves you feeling bleh about yourself at the end of the day. It's okay to tell someone that whatever is making them happy, even though you are happy they are happy, is bothering you. Let's take the headache example, it's okay to ask your friends or family to quiet down. It's okay to let that person know that you have to get up for that 7 a.m. test you have in the morning and you cannot physically stay up any longer for your own sake.
No one is going to know how to love you unless you tell them how you need to be loved. Relationships do not just take, take, take. It is give a little, get a little. Right now you are allowing everyone to take from you.
It's okay to put others before yourself. It's admirable because a lot of people worry about their needs far more than the next guy far too often. But it is not okay to forget about the beautiful person giving it all away.
