Let’s all take a moment to remember – and appreciate – the Taylor Swift from around 2006. The one with long blonde curly hair who wore sparkly cowboy boots and white dresses. The one who wrote songs about Tim McGraw and boys she went to high school with. Yeah… this one.

No one could help themselves from singing along to “Our Song” or acting like they’re in a music video when “Teardrops on My Guitar” came on. It was weird how she could even make freshman year of high school sound doable and even kind of fun with “Fifteen.” Before Taylor, no one knew it was possible to write a song for a school talent show and then have it end up as a number 1 single all over the world.

When she started dating some boys in the spotlight like Joe Jonas and Taylor Lautner, every little girl’s heart throbbed. Platinum albums and tons of number 1 hits, but she still seemed so down to earth, donating to charity and acting like she was friends with fans. Sure, she dated a lot of different guys, but at least they all got a song written about them. All publicity is good publicity, right?? Us loyal Taylor fans loved her through all of that, the ups and the downs, even when she decided to go a little bit more “pop” rather than country with Red. I don’t know about you (but I’m feeling 22 – haha jk) but I strived to be just like her. See, all of her songs really get stuck in your head! I never seemed to mind that until recently when she decided to completely make a 180.

This brings me to current day, halfway through 2017, witnessing a situation my little pre-teen self could have never imagined, not even in my wildest dreams. “We” must have done something to Taylor to cause her to completely revolt against the world. I was able to love her through all of her previous changes, because change is expected, but I’m just not sure about this one. She doesn't even give us time to guess why she’s like this now because she makes sure we know – about 24 times over – that it was us. The line “look what you made me do” will not quit echoing in my head. I understand she wants us to believe that the old her is “dead”, but I can't say it doesn’t sting the tiny little part of my heart that was built up when T-Swizzle rose to fame. This all may seem a bit dramatic but I’m just saying that I completely understand if you need some time and space to get over this.

She left us in the dumps, questioning what we could have possibly done to her to make her make her music videos more similar to horror movies rather than cute-romantic-boys-on-horses. So, “Old Taylor”, please resurrect and come to the phone, we miss you.