When I tell people that I have no idea what I want to do in life, I am not being dramatic. I actually mean it. Yes, I know that I am only nineteen, but you would think I would have a little idea of what I wanted to do. I honestly stresses me a little when people tell me, "oh you have time you will find something". That is true that I do in fact have a little time before I graduate college, but as an upcoming sophomore shouldn't I have something in mind?
I can remember looking back when I was in primary school, when we had "career day", I would always come to school dressed as a doctor. Although there was one time I thought about becoming a dance instructor. That dream did not last long. If you have ever seen me dance, you would understand why. There was also a time when I thought I wanted to be a journalist. I had a teacher in elementary school who required us to go home every night and watch the news. We then had to come back to school and tell her at least three to five current events happening in the world. I would get my news by watching the "CBS Evening News" every night. At the time, Katie Couric was the host, and I remember being so fascinated by her. I told my mom I wanted to be like her and that I wanted to tell the news. I am not sure why, but that dream did not last long either, because
I went back to thinking I wanted to be a doctor.
All throughout high school I kept the same vision that I wanted to still be a doctor. That changed when I arrived to college. My first year was awful. My original major was biology. Between math and chemistry, I was so miserable. I thought to myself, "if I am unhappy now, what makes me think I will be happy making a career out of this?". The only thing holding me back was fear. I was so scared to change my major, because I was scared I was not going to find anything else to major in. I was mainly scared to fail. After thinking long and hard, I decided there was no way I could do this. I changed my major from biology to "undecided". It is still undecided to this day.
I have thought about other major and career options for me. Law has been an option I have often thought about. Even journalism has crossed my mind several times. The thing I have found to be most important when looking for a major or career path is that you must find what interests you and see what paths that leads you down. For me, I have always had an interest for writing. I am not the greatest writer by no means, but it is something I enjoyed. History and politics have been two more interests of mine as well. Where will those interests take me in life? I have no clue, but I will stay hopeful that it will bring down a great path.
My main point I am trying to make is that even though it is so stressful not knowing what you are planning on doing in life, that is OK! You are going to be OK! The world is filled with endless opportunities. Find what interests you. Find out what your talents are. Do not let fear get in your way. Fear is a state of mind. If there is something that both scares you and excites you, then that is a sign you should definitely go for it. The key is to have a good attitude and a positive mind set.
