Let me start off by telling you a little bit about myself. I’m a strong Christian who loves God and my family. I’m the kind of person who has always been one to follow the rules. I always do as I’m told and try my best not to cause problems. I really enjoy making people laugh, and when someone is kind to me it makes my entire face light up. I’m really not a hard person to get along with, but I’m very shy.

So now that you know a little bit about me let me point out that I am not perfect. My parents and family look at me and see their innocent little girl who could never do anything wrong. And that’s partly my fault because I follow rules so well, but sometimes life gets hard trying to live up to those expectations. I’m not saying that I don’t want my family to expect good things from me, but I want them to know that I am only human and I do make mistakes. So not only will good things come from my life but so will bad things.

Since I graduated high school I have had to make so many decisions for my future. And to be completely honest, I have let myself down over and over again. I never knew life could be so hard. I’ve had friends come in and out of my life and I’ve even had guys come and go, but I’m always disappointed in myself for the person I become around different people.

Since I was born I have been going to church. Loving God is not a secret that I keep from people, but sometimes the devil gets in my head and I withhold my love for God from others. I have made decisions I do and will always regret, I've lied to or withheld the truth from people I love, and I've let down the one person who loves me despite it all.

I know my story jumps around some, but it has a point so bear with me.

Even though I am someone who tries to do what is expected of me by God or by my family, I still screw up sometimes. I make decisions I later regret because I'm human. I lie to or withhold the truth from people I love because I don't want them to look at me and see the ugly scars I have under the skin. As for letting down God, I have no excuse, that's just sin. I'm not perfect and never will I ever claim to be. But as I mentioned before, God loves me despite it all and I am so thankful for my salvation. And this isn't one of those things where I'm trying to get you to give your life over to God. This is just letting you know that even Christians struggle in day to day life, and we still make the wrong decision every now and then.