Taylor Swifts song “22” came out in 2012. In 2012 I was a junior in high school and almost 17. I've waited 5 1/2 years to be able to sing this song and really feel it, but the thing is, being 22 is not fun and cool like the song makes you think.

Being 22 is a total let down. I know what you're thinking: Taylor makes being 22 sound so new and exciting, I don’t understand why it's a let down? Being and turning 22 isn’t just a let down because of the obvious reasons such as, no longer being 21 and legal; it's a let down because not only did Taylor's song make all of us girls excited to eventually turn 22, it's a let down because being 22 is the weirdest, most awkward time I've ever felt in my life.

When I say awkward, I don’t mean the word in the sense of middle school body changing awkward. I mean I’m 22, I have one more semester left of college, I've been with my boyfriend for about three years now, I'm graduating with an art degree and in 6 months I have to start life as a real human being and actually get a job and everyday I wake up in a cold sweat. That kind of awkward.

I have friends that I've talked to about how weird and almost sad I feel about this in-between time in my life, to see if they feel the same way. And I've come to the conclusion that most people in this time / stage of life do.

Social media makes being 22 so much harder and weirder because everyone that is the same age as you makes you feel like you are behind in some sense. I feel behind in the “IM ENGAGED” stage of life, because within the past year I've screamed at my phone “YOU'RE LIKE A SOPHOMORE IN COLLEGE WHY ARE YOU GETTING ENAGED BEFORE ME” more times than I can count and it freaks me out to my core.

Marriage and getting engaged doesn’t freak me out, it just freaks me out that so many people are doing it like it's some sort of fad. If I’m being totally honest like yay I’m happy for you because I love my boyfriend and knowing you want to be with someone is so so happy and great, but like wait for me because by the time it happens for me it won't be cool anymore. It will be like old news.

I feel the same way with everyone having kids. I in no way want children right now or in the very near future, but like everyone having babies is making me feel behind! While I write this article I can feel my mom saying, “Everyone has their own path and you do not have to do what everyone else is doing.” Yeah I know mom, but the way social media has made both of these topics so prevalently around me in every way I look, I can't help but feel behind.

Another thing that I struggle with is who I am as a person. This again goes hand in hand with this time of life. I love my life, I really do. I have great friends and a very loving family. I have an amazing, supportive and hot boyfriend who loves me and we are parents to the most hysterical kitty in the world, but I struggle with what I want to be and who I am inside.

The hunt to find a job or figure out what I even want to do after school makes me feel like I could blackout on spot whenever I try to process the thought. I have to make all these huge life changing decisions, but also at this point of the semester and year, nothing is for sure which also freaks me out because most of the time I feel like I just want to be done wondering what my life is going to look like in 6 months.

I'm also finally starting to feel the burden of college loans creeping up behind my back. For all of college, I've pretty much just tried not to think about the fact that I will have debt after school, because I convinced myself that I would figure it out and everything will be okay. Which is something I still believe, but the fact of them being real and that is starting to sink in more and that is also something totally scary.

Overall, I do know that everything will end up the way it is suppose to be and that I will feel better soon. At least that's what I tell myself to get me through the rest of this semester and next. I just try to take things day by day and trust that the universe will get me where I need to be and work out whats best for me, even if I don’t know what that is.

Sometimes life is lonely, even when you have a million people around you and there for you. I am my own worst enemy and I've found that talking about how you feel with others can be therapeutic and can make you feel like you are not alone in how you are feeling. I know now that I am not the only one freaking about about some or all of the topics I mentioned above. But for a while it felt like me against the world.

If you feel stuck or in a weird time in your 22 years of life, remember that pretty much everyone that is 22 is feeling the same way at one point. And if they aren’t, they are lying cause 22 pretty much sucks!!!!

So no I’m NOT feeling 22; thanks a ton Taylor Swift for the false song about a year of life that is pretty much a game of limbo!

If I have any advice to give so the ending of this article doesn’t seem so depressing like the rest of the arctic was, try to live every day thanking whatever or whoever you pray to for the positives in your life. Life is short and dwelling on the things you don’t have or don’t know will make you miss out on the things you do have and do know.

You are not alone in how you feel, and you will figure it out! Let’s all kick ass at whatever stage we are in, and try to stay as positive about life as we can! Buy a "good vibes only" t-shirt or something, that might help! Do something everyday that makes your soul happy, and you will live a blessed life.