Leaving home always seems so exciting and it definitely is. At times though, home is exactly where I need to be. The constant sarcasm and sass that filtered through my family and the constant feeling of security makes rough weeks feel alright again. Home makes every test seem okay, and it's the place where I know I can always revert to a sets of memories hanging on the walls.
Just because Dorothy from The Wizard of Oz claims, "there is no place like home," doesn't mean home can't be in more than one place. I feel home in two different places. College is the home where a completely new life for me is and my actual hometown allows me to feel peace and just sink back into the easiness from the past few years of my life.
I don't always get home cooked meals but the company of my parents brings the happy warm feelings I always love. But the feeling of being in a place that allowed me to make some of the best friends I've ever had gives me the same feelings.
The idea of a break from school is an awkward time where you wish your two homes could mix. You miss your friends from school but you love seeing the people you know and are familiar with.
I love going home. I force myself not to though. As I grow up I can't make myself exist in a childhood that I no longer live in. There is a time and place home is a great place to be, but I need to make a new home for myself as well. Alot of people get scared of making a new place their home because they don't want to go through an identity crisis.
Yes, that can happen. Yes, it can go away. It's okay to make a new place for yourself. The idea of a new home is definitely scary, but it's exciting as well. And it's definitly worth it.
