Although I've written a lot lately about my transferring process, with each article and day that passes, it becomes more of a reality. In each of those days, I feel a lot of different emotions that validate the whole experience. Each emotion differs the previous, but all hold true to the mix of emotions I am having about transferring very soon to my new home.
1. Excitement
The first feeling that I get every time I think about going to my new school is just pure excitement. It’s those exciting jitters that you get whenever you’re expecting something soon and it just can’t happen soon enough. I have a countdown and with each passing day, I think more and more about being at my new school.
2. Nervousness
To counteract that excitement, I do feel nervous about the process. I’ll be starting over again while trying to find where I fit in. The size difference of my new school is also a little overwhelming. I know that I will find my place, but the road to get to that point seems a little daunting. There is so much unknown to me about what my life will be like there and not knowing has my nerves a little riled up.
3. Opportunistic
One thing I plan to do at my new school is to keep myself busy, but not too busy for my own good. There are so many things that I want to do that I wasn’t able to do at my current school. I’ll be meeting more people and exposes to new clubs and organizations. I’ll be able to study what I want and have so many opportunities from that major. I don’t have a doubt that the opportunities for me at my new school will be plentiful.
4. Nostalgic
The biggest thing that gives me regret about transferring is leaving the friends I have made at my current school. I’ll miss my comfortableness with the smaller campus and seeing the same familiar faces every day. I’ll miss running into my friends and talking to them for hours. I’ll miss being in a city where I was so comfortable and happy, but only lacked specific things I wanted to get out of going to college. I’ll definitely miss the memories and friends I’ve made so far.
5. Content
Through all the mixed emotions I seem to be having, in the grand scheme of things, I really do feel content about transferring. I know that my friendships aren’t over, I’ll always be close with my friends here. I know that my nervousness and excitement will balance each other when I start school there. The happiness I feel when I talk or think about being at my new school, I know that I’ll be okay there.
I’m having several mixed emotions about transferring to my new school. It’s a lot to think about and it’s happening so soon that sometimes I feel overwhelmed by it all. Overall though, it’s a new chapter of my life that I cannot wait for. Emotions or not, I’m ready for it all.
