To pain,

This was an easy answer because I really thought I loved you and it was such a slow realization that you were so cruel and unfair to me. It took me months to see how you manipulated me into being with you. You made me feel less than, small, like I was straight up crazy or wrong if I didn't listen to or love you. I really believed that you believed I was your property. I will never forgive myself for thinking that your feelings mattered more than mine and that my wants and overall boundaries mattered less than your stupid, unfair, selfish rules. I hope your abuses come back to bite you one, I hope karma treats you the way you treated me. I hope one day you realize that calling all your exes psychos might mean that you're actually the crazy, abusive, emotionally manipulative psycho.

To patience,

I thought you were love at first, but the more I thought about it you're patience. I did love you and losing you was so painful and hard, but I am so grateful for our relationship. Considering you were really my first serious boyfriend you helped me learn about what I did and didn't want in a relationship and taught me about myself. You helped me learn what a real relationship and love could be, you taught me heartbreak, overall you helped me grow. I'll always look back on our time together with love.

To love,

I don't know if I found someone specific for this yet, but I have my friends and my parents who taught me love. My friends who have been there for me through the pain, helped me learn, who I've talked to for days straight, who I've stayed up crying to glee at 3am, who I've danced in my living room with. That taught me love. My mom, who is the strongest person I've ever met, who raised me on her own taught me I was worth everything that I worked for. Her and my stepdad only met four years ago and they are the best couple, they taught me love is waiting. I've had my friends, family and myself teach me love so I know what I want so hopefully there won't be a "next."