There are two types of teenage girls out there: the fangirl and the not-fangirl. Luckily, I was the former and I was probably one of the biggest fangirls you will ever meet. Only problem was that while everyone I knew in middle and high school was obsessed with One Direction, I was obsessed with Big Time Rush.
Because of my Big Time Rush obsession, I was pretty known everywhere. Everyone in school recognized me as the girl who loved Big Time Rush, while at home all of my family and friends knew that once they saw me "Big Time Rush" would be dropped out of my mouth at least five times per conversation. Going into high school, freshman year, my goal was to talk about Big Time Rush less, but that goal failed after I talked about them within the first week of school.
Kendall Schmidt, James Maslow, Carlos Penavega, and Logan Henderson were my life and there was nothing changing about that. I had multiple Instagram fan pages being run about them, and surprisingly my fanpages were flourishing, comparing one of my accounts had over two thousand followers. Because of these Instagram accounts, I began making internet friends. I guess it was good because it allowed me to learn about people different than myself but also similar, but it also got out of hand. Some of those friendships ended after a few months but the one thing that never ended was my love for four dorks who rode around on a bus.
While everyone at school would make fun of me nonstop for liking Big Time Rush, I ignored them and continued being different. I had no real life friends that liked them as much as I did, but that just made me love them more. Their music was one of the only things that cheered me up, like when I would do poorly on a test, I would just sing Big Time Rush lyrics and it would calm me down.
Because of my love for them, they consumed my life. I spent most days discussing a past concert I had been to, like when Carlos hugged me, or counting down the days till the next one. Pretty much my whole life was Big Time Rush for a while. But as time has passed, although I love them just as much, I have gotten older and talk about them less and less. I will still defend them with my life but I have learned how to control how much I talk about them which is very good.
I will always be a fangirl and Big Time Rush will always have an important part in my heart, but luckily I have learned that there are other things just as important like friends and family. I will never regret my love for Big Time Rush since I still love them just as much, but I will always laugh at how much of a "cringe" I was.
