So many people have super strange fears like cats or spiders, or ones that seem super justifiable like dying or drowning. But I don't like anything scares me more than being with the right person at the wrong time. I feel like I always used to mistake this fear for fear of commitment or of a serious relationship. It wasn't until I obsessively watched the movie Love, Rosie so many times that I realized my biggest fear is finding the perfect person and somehow not being able to be with them.
If you haven't seen Love, Rosie it is an amazing film that follows a pair of best friends that are both in love with each other but due to the wild and crazy turns of life, they just keep missing each other. Even though they both want nothing more but to be with each other they can never tell the other or make it work because the universe just never seems to be on their side.
This makes me nauseous, anxious and absolutely terrified. Like ever girl ever all I can dream about is finding the perfect guy to give me a fairy tale ending. The thought of having that in my possession and then losing just because time itself doesn't want it to work out makes me so unbelievably upset.
Something like this has already happened for me. I truly think that I was with my right person at the wrong time, and I continue to try and get over it every day.
We are constantly striving to keep the people that we love around us, a big part of this fear is the fear of being left behind or forgotten by those that we care about.
I don't know why but my brain can never move past this topic and the fear that it evokes within me. I hope that one-day things actually fall into place, but until then you will catch me worrying about it non-stop.