I find it crazy how simple the start of a relationship can be. Not just romantic relationships but also friendships and brother/sister bonds. There comes a point in a conversation where a person decides that they want to try and create something with this person. A bond can form when a person decides to ask for your number. This person can also decide to text you first. Honestly, I love people like that and fortunately enough, I have many of those friends. Sadly though, I cannot speak to people well, even when it comes to friends. That is a big weakness of mine and it seems to be all about developing confidence.

If I were more confident, I would be able to do more of the things that I want and talk to the people I want, but I digress. I enjoy seeing the development of relationships and sometimes, I feel bad because it seems like I don’t want it. (Public service announcement to anyone that knows me: it’s not that I don’t want it, I just feel overwhelmed sometimes!) I love getting to know people and vice versa.

It's great to see people's reactions when I answer questions that are different than their expectations. Relationships are tricky but I think a good trick is to, never get to completely know someone. Whether they are your best friend or your significant other, always keep learning about them. It's important to try new things together.

Beginnings are beautiful. The other day I had a terribly uncomfortable case of déjà vu. I was out with a new friend of mine, on our first “date” and I walked the exact same underpass that me and my ex-boyfriend did on our first date. Keep in mind, this was extremely coincidental and just walking this path made me feel unhappy. It was different though, I wasn’t with him and this new guy was doing all in his power to make sure that the conversation never stopped flowing. I had a great time and it overshadowed me thinking about my ex. This person and I could stop talking tomorrow, but I won’t forget how he helped make my birthday amazing.

I wish it was easy to open up but when you’re so afraid of being hurt, you don’t want to give yourself the opportunity for anything worthwhile. My friend literally had to force me to go out with him and the whole ride there, I was freaking out. I had the most insane butterflies in my stomach.

Regardless of what happens with this person, I’ll always appreciate the beginning. In the beginning, you’re still living in the moment, you think more about the now then the later. This is probably why first dates have so much pressure around them. It’s all about the humble beginnings.