I can feel my heartbeat align with the rhythm, the beautiful melody kiss my ears, and my muscles have begun to relax. And whatever tension I felt around my neck or dull pain I felt in my head is now gone.
I don't think anyone will ever truly understand how much music means to me and the love I have for it. It means so much to me that sometimes fully expressing it into words can be tough but, if I had to explain it, it would sound a little something like this:
I like to think of music as a person. A person that has made their way into my life in the best way possible. That person is always there for me in my times of need, they're there for me when I'm in my happiest moments, and without them, I'd have a hard time getting through a lot. There were so many times where I could have cried but it was there to push me through that. All my life music has been that other half of me that I just can't live without.
Overtime I was on stage singing to a crowd, it was the most exhilarating and liberating feeling in the world, and it was as if nothing else mattered and I was free from reality. Here's the thing too, it's not about just singing to an audience or making sure that my song and my performance is the best one. None of that matters. For me, it was (and still is) about the emotion behind what I'm singing and making sure that there's a connection. If I'm going to sing a song I'm going to feel it. And you see, that's the best part about it. Singing for me is about telling a story even if it's not my own. I can take a step away from all reality even if it's just for a moment.
I first learned to hear music as more than how it sounds when I was about six or seven years old. I would hear songs that would have so much emotion behind the artist's voice and I would feel those emotions too. When I would listen to the radio and hear an them pour their emotions into a song, I sometimes wondered if it was easier that way - to sing it into a song instead of saying it.
Music has just always been something that runs in the family. My grandma has such an amazing voice and is so talented and my grandpa used to be a composer for other singers and wrote such beautiful music. It's musicality like theirs that truly inspires me.
Now, I may not be going to school for music, but one thing I know for sure is that I'll always have it with me. I don't ever want to think of what it would feel like if I never had the opportunity to sing again. In all honesty, it would feel like a huge chunk of me and who I am was missing, and there's nothing I wouldn't do to have more of it in my life. So call me a music-aholic, but it's the one thing I'll always be addicted to. I love music and that will never change.