Something I have always struggled with in life is "what would Jesus do?" That when I have the urge to get so mad at someone, I think to myself how I worship a Good God who forgives and loves so easily. That we never have to question his love for us no matter how much we betray him, he only wants the good for us.

The last three or four months I have been working on myself more than ever and working on "loving thy neighbor." Whether that be from a distance or someone that I live with, just loving everyone in general. No one is perfect, we all make mistakes that we think define us when they in fact do not. I often struggle with the line between "what would jesus do" and "I deserve better than this" and I have come to the conclusion that there may be no line. That yes, you may deserve better than the way someone has treated you, but does that mean you can not love that person and you wish the worst on them? No it does not. And this takes time. Distance yourself until you can realize, "okay, they are not at the point where they could be and theres nothing wrong with that, but I need to not be apart of this right now." Loving from a distance has been something I have been working on so hard. That we as humans can not fix people, we can only love them and do the best we can to pray for them.

Now I will be the first to tell you that when someone betrays me its not easy for me to say, "well I am going to love you still." You want to yell and scream and hit a wall and probably cry your eyes out. But in reality, you are worth so much more than the hurt that someone could put you through. Does yelling at someone and telling them all the wrong they are doing make you a better person? No and that's the whole goal isn't it? To be the best possible version of ourselves. I've been known to just shut someone out after being betrayed. To take a break from that person which can be a good thing, but while in this period of time, I pray for them. I hope to God that he is working on their heart and that He has the best plan as he always does.

There is a LARGE difference between loving thy neighbor and letting someone walk all over you which is where loving from a distance comes in. Taking the time out of your day to put someone else down and think about all the hurt they have caused on you will do 100% no good. You may ask, "how in the world do we love from a distance?" Well in my opinion its pretty easy. If you have been hurt by them, strive to forgive them because the Lord has made them into the person that they are supposed to be, and he's got that in his hands. I don't know who needs to hear this but it is not your job to fix people, it is your job to be here for them. Don't treat this time as a "passive aggressive" time to teach that person a lesson or to show them what life is like without you. Take it to truly better yourself and to have patience. God has his plan in the works and nothing is veering from that, so why are we stressing? It's a good life and surrounding ourselves with people we love, makes it even better.