This Is What It Is Like To Love Someone Who Does NOT Love You
Start writing a post

This Is What It Is Like To Love Someone Who Does NOT Love You

It is not the best feeling, but we've all had it.

This Is What It Is Like To Love Someone Who Does NOT Love You

I want you to remember a feeling.

That moment when you’ve been underwater in the deep end, trying to sit on the floor. You can feel the bumps of the floor. You look around and can see everyone’s feet and legs just having a blast. Slowly you’re running out of air. So logically you head for the air. As you get closer to the top you start to feel your chest tighten. You know you need relief. If you could pause at the second before you hit that saving gasp for air, that would be where I sit. I am in this place of discomfort, I can see relief on the other side, yet I live in a constant state of a tight chest.

As a child you believe that everything works out in the end. True love is a given and easy to achieve, but as time goes on you learn that in fact not everyone gets this.

I think I need to acknowledge the fact they don’t know I love them. I have never once thought about telling them. When you truly care about someone you know what they can handle. God bless him, but he couldn’t handle this. And honestly, I don’t want to put that on them.

Everyone is always surprised when I tell them I don’t believe in love. I’m sure you are as well. “But isn’t your article about the person you love?”. And you’d be right, I am a bit confusing. Sometimes I just refuse to believe that another person can have so much power over you. I guess I can say I don’t believe in true love. There is no one out there just waiting to find me. That terrifies people. Most peoples biggest fear is dying alone. But how scary can it really be? We all came in this world alone why not go out the same way we came in.

Recently I took a trip to Disney, which is my all time favorite place. I was sitting waiting for the Halloween parade to start, watching the show going on in the street when I got that feeling. But, this time something was different. I wasn’t upset that he wasn’t there. Yes, I knew he would enjoy this just as much as me, but I didn’t miss him. Small accomplishments like this are what help me know that one day I won’t be stuck drowning in a pool.

Report this Content
the beatles
Wikipedia Commons

For as long as I can remember, I have been listening to The Beatles. Every year, my mom would appropriately blast “Birthday” on anyone’s birthday. I knew all of the words to “Back In The U.S.S.R” by the time I was 5 (Even though I had no idea what or where the U.S.S.R was). I grew up with John, Paul, George, and Ringo instead Justin, JC, Joey, Chris and Lance (I had to google N*SYNC to remember their names). The highlight of my short life was Paul McCartney in concert twice. I’m not someone to “fangirl” but those days I fangirled hard. The music of The Beatles has gotten me through everything. Their songs have brought me more joy, peace, and comfort. I can listen to them in any situation and find what I need. Here are the best lyrics from The Beatles for every and any occasion.

Keep Reading...Show less
Being Invisible The Best Super Power

The best superpower ever? Being invisible of course. Imagine just being able to go from seen to unseen on a dime. Who wouldn't want to have the opportunity to be invisible? Superman and Batman have nothing on being invisible with their superhero abilities. Here are some things that you could do while being invisible, because being invisible can benefit your social life too.

Keep Reading...Show less

19 Lessons I'll Never Forget from Growing Up In a Small Town

There have been many lessons learned.

houses under green sky
Photo by Alev Takil on Unsplash

Small towns certainly have their pros and cons. Many people who grow up in small towns find themselves counting the days until they get to escape their roots and plant new ones in bigger, "better" places. And that's fine. I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought those same thoughts before too. We all have, but they say it's important to remember where you came from. When I think about where I come from, I can't help having an overwhelming feeling of gratitude for my roots. Being from a small town has taught me so many important lessons that I will carry with me for the rest of my life.

Keep Reading...Show less
​a woman sitting at a table having a coffee

I can't say "thank you" enough to express how grateful I am for you coming into my life. You have made such a huge impact on my life. I would not be the person I am today without you and I know that you will keep inspiring me to become an even better version of myself.

Keep Reading...Show less
Student Life

Waitlisted for a College Class? Here's What to Do!

Dealing with the inevitable realities of college life.

college students waiting in a long line in the hallway

Course registration at college can be a big hassle and is almost never talked about. Classes you want to take fill up before you get a chance to register. You might change your mind about a class you want to take and must struggle to find another class to fit in the same time period. You also have to make sure no classes clash by time. Like I said, it's a big hassle.

This semester, I was waitlisted for two classes. Most people in this situation, especially first years, freak out because they don't know what to do. Here is what you should do when this happens.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments