I think we have all been through it before. That weird limbo phase when you have found a special honey that catches your eye, but you are not sure if you have caught their eye. And, I for one, have been through this for A LOT sadly. And, it shows with how weird the relationship becomes. It becomes really hard when you are in that limbo phase when you don't know if the person likes you and you don't know if you like the person. For yourself, you have to determine whether you want to go for it but you aren't sure.
This is especially true for me as I have never wanted to rush into things without confirming my feelings. When it comes to situations like these, I tend to be so fickle about my feelings. I always feel a rush of a crush in the beginning, but the later I wait, the more fickle my feelings become. In this way, I always keep swaying in and out of "liking", there are things that the person does that just makes my heart melt. but, I always waver because I see something questionable they do. I know its too unrealistic to think that someone would fit perfectly enough to not make me waver. But, I avidly do not want to start something I cannot handle or finish.
I want to know what I am getting myself into because especially if its something as significant as a relationship. And, thus, I get stuck in this weird place between liking and not liking. When the other person does something super sweet or that I feel like would fit so well, I legit cannot handle it. But, I always approach with precaution because I am not sure if I will continue to stay like this. And, I get stuck between elation and denial. It is a weird place to be absolutely level headed and then become crazy over a crush again and again.
For all you people experiencing this feeling out there, know you are not alone, and it sucks. The key is to know what you want and pursue it. Sad things is- I do not know what I want.
