After about a month of college, the effects of late nights and early mornings have begun to take a toll on me. In fact, just the other day, I might've had some sort of "mid-life crisis" going on. I'm currently taking a media major, specifically in film so obviously there's the talk about not being successful in this business or not being able to find a job. But with that added on to the exhaustion of getting quite possibly only 5-6 hours of sleep on average, you get grumpy and things start to overwhelm you easily. I got into a bit of banter with my mother regarding college transferring, when will I transfer, what schools, etc. We aren't on the same page, which isn't surprising with parents. But nonetheless I retired to my room, frustrated about our conversation and rethinking everything.
I pondered the idea of possibly switching majors to something I didn't want to do, but that I'd be good at and could get a career in. During this long thought process, I had to leave for work, and the addition of that with what I had just been doing, did not sit well with me. I was miserable at my job, I didn't want to be there, I didn't want to be working as much as I had been the past couple weeks. It had been starting to get to me and I realized I've been spreading myself too thin lately. I haven't been able to get a good night's sleep in days, weeks even, and I was struggling to find time in between class and my job to find time to go out and shoot photos for photography, or to sit read multiple chapters of a textbook. I would be asking coworkers, pleading even just to get that one extra day off. But alas there are never any days off. Someone would take my shift and I'd still have to get up and get to class, go home and do as much work as I possibly can in anticipation of the next weeks workload.
After a bit of self-deprecation, I came to terms with what I wanted to do. I want to continue studying media and communications and film. This is what I want to do. It could land me anywhere in the industry and I'd be okay with that. I need to let my parents know specifically what my intentions are for moving on in my collegiate career. I needed to take a step back and appreciate the good things I have going on in my life to make myself happier. I have good friends around me, I have friends at work who make sure I'm okay if they see that I'm having an off day, although they may be a pain sometimes, my family has always had my back, and I have my girlfriend to always make sure I never slack off to be thankful for. Sometimes you need to just take a step back and appreciate the little things.
One simple thing can play such a large role in how the rest of your week goes. Keep a positive mind in all that you do. If things just keep going wrong one thing after another, stay calm and know that tomorrow will bring you a fresh canvas. You have the ability to make the rest of your days a true pleasure just by the mindset you hold. Be thankful for the people in your life that support you and who are there to help. Enjoy the little things. Make every day your best and keep moving forward.
