What we had over the years has been on and off and full of highs and lows. But I do not regret one single thing. You will never understand how much you truly mean to me and to extent that I care for you. Whether you realize it or not you have helped me get through so many rough times. But at the same time you've also created tough times for me, more than I would like to admit. I know we were never together but I fell for you, and I fell hard. Falling for you and getting over you is something that I've become accustomed to.
There won't be a time in my life that I don't think of you and wonder how you're doing. But the difference now is that I won't ask. I refuse to let you hurt me again, this was the last straw and I've had enough.
When I care about someone I go above and beyond. But the thing is, if you cared for me you wouldn't have hurt me time and time again. This last time was the worst of all; I could never have imagined in my worst nightmares that you would completely cut me out of every aspect of your life without even a warning. Even though I am still sad and mad at you, I am also thankful that you shut me out because I would not have had the strength to do it myself.
To move on, be happy and find someone… I can't have you in my life at all. Not even this on again off again nonsense, because every time you put these false hopes in my heart. I need to learn how to let people in again because my walls are higher than they've ever been because of you.
I was never significant to you but I want you to know that you were to me. I don't cut people out of my life, it's just not something that I am able to bring myself to do but I need to do this now for my own wellbeing. Take care of yourself and remember that there will always be a part of my heart that belongs to you.
