Recently, my best friend since kindergarten got engaged to the love of her life. It was such an exciting occasion. Her boyfriend and I conspired together for a few months to make it the most perfect day ever. They went to her family’s lake house, and he lined the dock with candles and rose petals. She walked down to see her boyfriend at the end of the dock. That’s when he got down on one knee and asked her to marry him. Which she, of course, said yes to.

With all this lovey-dovey wedding stuff happening, I got to thinking about my future husband. Certainly, when my best friend Abbey started college, she had no idea she would be meeting the man she would spend forever with. Also, she probably didn’t think she would even be engaged by now.

God works in weird and funny ways. He knows how our life will pan out.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11

You may not meet the one for years, or they may be just around the corner. Who knows? What we do know, is it’s hard to not yearn for your significant other, or even wonder about them. I know these questions constantly go around my head like a snowstorm:

What is he doing right now?

Is he thinking of me?

What are his dreams?

What does he look like?

What are his hobbies?

Is he in the same room as me right now?

Have I already met him?

Day by day, night by night, I wonder and wonder when will I meet him. I know it’s all in God’s hands and He knows when and where and how, but I can’t help but wish I could fast forward on it a little. Like, please give me a hint God! I’m dying of anticipation.

I mean, I know I am only eighteen years old and have my whole life ahead of me, but this girl is impatient.

So to battle that restlessness I have started a journal for my future husband. Something to write my thoughts and prayers for him in, and maybe doodle in. I found the suggestion online and decided to take a crack at it. I went to Marshall’s, found a cute, inexpensive journal, and began my journey to my future husband.

It’s not an everyday thing, but I try to do it consistently. I pray for his well-being and success, to lead him away from temptations and that whatever he is doing now, that he does for the Lord. I write letters about my day in it, and my latest coffee escapades. There is even water colored art splashed on the pages (it’s got a 50/50 chance of turning out aesthetically pleasing). I have lists of favorite songs, cute date ideas, and hopes for the future.

I’ve found that writing to him helps the eagerness subside and allows me to focus on becoming a good woman of God for him. The singleness season is the best season, because it allows you to focus on your greatest love: God. He’s always there, never busy, and will listen without being distracted by a football game (no offense boys). After all, your biggest priority is God, then your husband.

There is a saying of, “chase after God, then after a bit, you’ll look to your side, and see someone chasing Him right beside you.” So in your single state, chase after God. Make Him your biggest priority. Eventually, your true love will be right beside you.

In the meantime, write letters to your future husband. It makes for a great wedding present and it will be fun to look back on in the future.