I recently came across the following quote, "If you're not obsessed with your life then change it." Of course, it's not always that easy... and it shouldn't be. We work for the things in life that are worth having, a good job, a steady career, a family, and our ultimate goal of blissful happiness. We are pushed to work harder and persuaded into crossing our old and comfortable boundaries.
I think we can all relate to unwinding at the end of the day, lying in bed, unable to sleep or even gather our thoughts because, if we could be given a visual representation, our mind probably looks pretty similar to a three-year-old's crayon scribbles on the wall. Or if you mastered the art of organizing all of your thoughts and they actually represent more of a well-organized file cabinet, one, props to you, and two, I'm sure you can relate to this. The need for change. Whether a drastic hair cut, new tattoo, or to move to a new place because the old one is stunting your growth. Because you spent five minutes staring in the mirror asking yourself if this is the life that's going to make you happy, if it's the life that fills your heart with outpouring lust, sends a thrill up and down your spine, and fulfillment down to your bones.
It's terrifying.
Living with the crushing anxiety about what you're going to do for the rest of your life, and if you'll be important. Through endless amounts of conversations with friends about college plans and majors, I realized this: that there is no map. There is no right decision because the ones we're making by worrying about if we're making them or not, are the right ones. We have to trust ourselves and have faith that whatever we decide will bring us to where we're supposed to be. It's okay to stop following the map we drew out for ourselves. In other words, It's good to have a plan, but it's okay to disregard the one you made for yourself senior year of high school and start following the one that feels right now.
We look to the future for happiness, and although it's pretty chaotic right now, we should enjoy the crazy. We should stop saying that life will be better once we do this or that, stop and say it is pretty sweet right now, and that things will eventually fall into place if we continue to have the courage to move forward and trust that we're on the path to the right place no matter what direction we may choose.