Dear you,
Don’t be ashamed of what you’re feeling right now. I’ve been there too. In fact, I’m there right now, and so are many others all around you.
Sometimes, it’s really hard to trust God.
We’ve been told time after time that “He knows what He’s doing” and “He knows the plans He has for you,” but sometimes, that just doesn’t feel like it’s enough.
We are so convinced that what we want is what we need and deserve to have at this moment. We think we have so many things figured out, so many things that are falling right into place, until one day, they’re not. One day, you realize it’s time to walk away from that boy. One day, you decide your current major just isn’t for you. One day, the dream you’ve been reaching for comes crumbling down. You don’t know what to do anymore.
Yesterday, you had it all figured out. Today, everything seems like it’s falling apart. It seems like there is no hope, no point in going on, no way things could ever be good again.
I promise you, they will be. No matter how far away God seems, no matter how devastating His plans for your life seem at the moment, hear me when I say that He is doing this for your own good.
He is good. He is only good. His plans are only good, even when they seem like they’re not. Even when the world comes crashing down, when you feel alone and scared and have no idea what to do next, He is there with you, leading you along His good path.
You’re barely hanging on. If you’re anything like me right now, you have no idea how you’re going to have the strength to keep hanging on, when you can’t even recognize the path ahead of you. Please keep hanging on. Our Good Father gives us enough strength each day to handle whatever it is that may be awaiting us each day. At the end of the day, it may seem like all your strength is gone, but a renewed hope greets us the very next morning.
God has foreseen your troubles since before you were born. He knew exactly what, and, more importantly, who, you would need in order to make it through each obstacle you were bound to face. He’ll give you the grace you need to keep walking away from that boy, that friend, or that bad situation. He’ll give you the grace to find your way again.
It will all be good. In fact, at this very moment, it is good. All of it. All of it is good and is leading you toward more good to come, because all of it is from Him who is only good.
It’s OK to not know where you’re going next. It’s OK to not know if you fully trust God right now. It’s OK to feel lost, scared, sad, and even empty. What you need to know is that you truly are not alone, and never will be. He’s holding you in His loving arms, carrying you along until you’re able to walk again.
Because, you will be able to walk again.
Love,
Me, a fellow college student struggling to trust God
"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
and the flame shall not consume you." Psalm 43:2
