Think back to those days by the pool when we didn’t have a care in the world when all we had to care about was who was going to be able to do a flip off the diving board first. Over the years I have had a lot of people who I have called a best friend but as of today none of those people are ones that I talk to anymore. It`s not that we had some huge fallout fight and told each other to never talk to each other again, it's just life happened we drifted apart. I’m not saying that we will never speak again because I want to see them. I want them to see me. I want us to see how we each had an effect on each other. I would not be where I am today without them and I would like to think that their path was changed ( hopefully for the better) by me.

Let's be honest with each other 90% of the reasons that we became friends was because of circumstances, you and I both know it. We saw each other 5-6 days a week and spend 8+ hours a day with each other, we were familiar with each other we knew each other better than our own families did because we spent more time together than we did with our own family. We became each others family so of course, we became best friends, how could we not?

I want you to know that even though we don’t talk any more that I will never forget the times we sat out in front of the school just talking, the first legal road trip we took after I turned 16. The countless afternoons we spent cooking bacon, eating chips, and drinking a gallon of milk for an afternoon snack.

Our Friday night breakfast nights, Saturday mornings sipping coffee sitting on a cold bus, our Sundays riding horses and me inevitably falling asleep while you painted my fingernails. Writing letters to each other and hiding them in our backpacks and lockers for us to find later. That was our time together and we went down different paths now we can’t go back to 15 or 16 when we were inseparable because we can’t be that age forever.

I may not like every post or comment on every picture of you, keep me on there for me to see because even though I don’t see or talk to you every day. I am proud of you and I am so blessed to have had you in my life for the short amount of time I did and for that I am grateful you have taught me so much about myself. I still watch your snap stories and I read your tweets. I wish you all the happiness in the world and I hope you someday find your best friend because I know that I am no longer fit for that job just as you are not for me. But please know that I am always just a phone call away.

Sincerely,