To the boy who broke my heart,
Thank you.
I want to start off by saying that this letter was not technically written for you, I wrote it awhile ago and have been waiting for the right moment to put it out there.
But the reality is there is no right moment, so here I am...
The past few months have been filled with highs and lows, and if I am being honest, a lot of pain. I wish that I could tell you that our break up did not hurt me, and that I am completely over it, but I would be lying. Our breakup hurt... a lot, but it was a new pain, one that I had never experienced before.
Not only did I lose my boyfriend, I lost my best friend.The person that I told everything to, the one that could always make me smile. The person that was always there no matter what.
It took my awhile to come to terms with the fate of our relationship, it's hard to see your future with someone who doesn't see it with you.
During the hardest part of our breakup I came across the following bible verse "Fear not for I am with you. Be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."It was when I was dealing with all this hurt and questioning, that I came to my biggest realization though, my heartache was occurring for a reason.
No one wishes pain upon a person, they only wish the best and because of this I have to believe that our breakup made me stronger.
I cannot let myself be wrapped up in the bitterness and angst that is found within our relationship and it is because if that that this is my wish for you...
I love you, and I always will and it is because of this that I would never wish anything but happiness upon you. So, I hope you find that person. I hope you find a girl that is a thousand times better than me in every aspect because despite all our efforts, we did not work out and you deserve to be with a girl that sees you for who you are and wants to be with you no matter what.
My wish is that you find pure happiness in someone that you are willing to give your heart to.
And finally, I want to thank you. I want to thank you for the time you allowed me to spend in your life. I am forever thankful for the love we shared and for the time you spent in my life. I am thankful that I walked into the dorm room that night and you smiled at me in my Wisconsin sweatshirt. I am thankful for the rollercoaster we went on and for the fiery, burning love we felt for each other.
But mainly, I am forever thankful for the person you influenced me to be.
I am thankful for your encouragement on taking risks, to try things I had never done before and mainly, for your passion to love someone to the fuliest.
I really, truly, hope you the best.
Best,
The girl who is moving on.
