Whoever you are, you’ve probably changed my life in some way, shape or form. We probably spent hours of our time together, and I’m sure we had a good relationship. Or maybe we didn’t, maybe our relationship was a hot mess. Either way, I know you changed my life in some way, and here is my thank you -- just in case I never said it before.
To the best friend: We were both little, and I wouldn’t really call what we had a relationship, but we were best friends. I wouldn’t trade our friendship for the world, as you opened my eyes to all new people and places. You helped me stand up for what I believed in, and you always told me to never let people get under my skin. “They aren’t worth it,” you used to tell me, and you were right.
To the one who ditched: You left really suddenly, but that’s OK. We were still young, and I didn’t expect anything long term. That was the first time I felt very alone, and at the time, it seemed like the end of the world. Now, I look back and realize that it was only the beginning, and it was only the start to my “young adult” life. We both moved on and we’re friends now, which makes me happy. Thank you for the pizza nights and laughs -- they always seem to be the cure to my rough days.
To the one who didn’t really count: Sometimes, I make compulsive decisions and, sometimes, I don’t have my priorities in check. I’m sorry you had to be on the butt-end of my bad decision making, and I’m sorry it messed up our friendship. We both let other people sway us in our choices, which ended up being our fall out. We don’t talk anymore, but I don’t mind that. I know how I should be treated, and you don’t treat me that way anymore, but you can let me know if anything between us changes. I appreciate all the reassurance and kind words during my rough days -- they really did turn my mood around.
To the middleman: You’re so happy now, which makes me happy. I know you want nothing to do with me now, but I still care about you. You were my best friend, my everything. I know it didn’t end the way we wanted it to, but I didn’t have a choice. That’s fate for you. Reach out sometime, or if you don’t want to talk to me, you can just listen to “Back to December” by Taylor Swift.
To the “little” one: We had a good relationship, and I’m grateful for everything that happened before, during and after. You were my rock and I was yours, but you helped me live a little. You forced me to take risks, which used to drive me crazy, but now I laugh at our insane memories. We hit a lot of bumps in the road, but we also had some great months. I’m sorry for wrecking your future with other girls, but I’m not sorry for being best friends with your mom (she rocks). Thanks for the late-night chocolate cake, the board games and hot cocoa on snow days. Thank you for always “getting me” and understanding me, and for helping me every time I’m upset. I’m happy we had the relationship we had, and that we have the friendship we have now.
To everyone who will come next: Thank you for being a part of my life, whether it be for two years or two months. If we are ever together, you are probably very important to me. Whether it ends in shambles or in a friendship for life -- thank you for sticking around.