Since I came to college, I feel as though my faith has been placed on the back burner. 12 years of Catholic school made it easy for it to be at the top of my list while I was there but college has become a different story. It’s not that I meant to put it there; it just somehow ended up there. Unintentionally, I stopped thinking about it. With two jobs, lacrosse, homework, friends and everything else college keeps me busy with, it wasn’t a priority. I still prayed and thought about it all the time, but I didn’t know how to jump back into it.
I knew deep down I was lacking something in my life. College felt pretty complete. I had all my ducks in a row, but not that one. Something just felt off and I didn’t know what it was. Everything is and was going great by anyone’s standards. Thriving in college is the dream. My faith had been such a big part of my entire life, when did it stop? I have realized now that my faith never stopped, God never stopped, it was me that stopped. I stopped paying attention and working for my faith. It takes work for me and that’s OK.
While I have been thinking about it for a long time, I saw a sign. The quote “Trust the process,” has been popping up everywhere. The first time I heard it was on my Kairos retreat my senior year of high school. Twitter, Tumblr, Instagram, Pinterest, you name it and I’ve seen it on there. I’ve seen that quote everywhere lately. At first, I just ignored it. Why should I trust the process? The process has been a tough thing to think about and I liked to think the process was over for me. I was above the process and didn’t need it at that point, or so I thought. The process has been really testing me lately and it’s annoying right?
Wrong.
Trusting the process was the key to fixing what I thought I lacked. I wasn’t lacking anything but trust. I was angry because nothing in my seemed to be going right even though it really looked like it was. I was upset and bitter about things I needed to let go. I needed to trust that everything is going the way God planned. Life is all about doing what’s right and trusting that you have done so.
God’s plan is perfect and free of flaws. I might think everything is going wrong, but I’m wrong for thinking that. I have never been more excited to say I was wrong, just kidding but really. Trusting the process is something I’m still learning and will learn over and over.
But right now, it feels like the right thing to do, so trust the process, it won’t fail you.
