Some people would call me a control freak, and they aren't entirely wrong. It's the one thing we never really have as mortals and almost always seem to crave. Control, power, immortality; they're all the same thing just under the guise of different names.
In the context of a label for me, however, control is the most apt way of describing it.
First, understand that my life revolves around control. Everything I do, feel, or eat affects everything else. The one thing I most stubbornly seek to control is my health, more precisely my blood sugar. If I eat too much, my blood sugar goes up and I am emotionally upset. If I become emotionally upset, my blood sugar drops and I can't do much until I eat more. It's a cycle that cannot be broken.
A better way of putting it is that I look for balance and try to control as much as I can to get me to that center-place.
Second, while my life revolves around control, I am also a perfectionist. I am determined to do things right and be at the top of my game. I may not always be THE best, but I had better always be MY best. I probably got this from my parents who are both hard-working people who wanted so much more for me than what they had for themselves.
Last, while labels are frowned upon in my society, I have found that, for me, they can be useful. If I can correctly identify and understand myself, I can improve. That is not to say that I should (or do) use negative labels for myself or any labels for others. I simply find it easier to understand who I am if I know how I define the labels I accept for myself.
