Here’s to the girls who gave a little too much to someone who deserved very little. It’s crazy, I know, how someone can seem perfect in every way and yet be so wrong. You wait and you wait and you wait because you swear there’s compassion and he does feel the same way he’s just scared to show it. You swear he’s a good guy deep down with a heart of gold that wouldn’t drag you along like this for no reason. You just know that one day it’s going to work out the way you want it to. That one day he’s going to realize that you’re just what he needs. One day he’s just going to open up to you and give you so much love that you don’t even know how to handle it. You just keep waiting and waiting and waiting. No, it’s time to wake up because the reality of this situation is that one day he just leaves. He cuts off all communication and leaves you with so many unanswered questions and a broken heart. Real life is not like those romantic love movies where he comes running after you in the airport someday when he realizes he’s made a huge mistake by letting you go. It’s not going to happen, ever.
I’m sorry that you have spent hours every night trying to figure out what you could do to make him want you. Maybe you could lose weight, be funnier, and be the sweet girl he’s after? What’s so wrong with you that he can’t commit right? Let me answer that question for you. There is nothing wrong with you, nothing. If he’s too ignorant and naive to see what he has right in front of him than be smart enough to walk away. Please don’t lose yourself trying to become someone you’re not.
Don’t be embarrassed by your feelings either, That's a good thing. Yes, you might have loved someone who didn’t feel the same way back but who cares? At least you did because that feeling is incomparable. I feel bad for those who don’t feel anything at all, what a boring life that must be. Life is too short to hold anything back. We waste our words and our moments way too often because we are afraid of the reaction we might get. You never know how much time you have left to say how you truly feel or do whatever your heart tells you. You’re not meant to hide your emotions, we were given them for a reason. You’re human and it's time we start acting like it. If he’s not capable of giving you the love you gave him in return than save all your love and compassion for someone who’s worth it. Someone who will cherish it and respect you for it. Someone who deserves all you have to offer. Don’t you dare waste it on someone who makes you feel wrong for caring. Don’t let him degrade you and treat you like you’re worthless because you are not. Let me repeat that, You are not worthless. You are a lover, a dreamer, a person that our present day needs more of. Emotional? So what! Own it.
In the reality of it all, we make time for the things we want in life. So don’t clear your schedule for someone if they can’t find time to even text you throughout the day. Ignore him like he ignored your calls, leave him like he did every night, and forget him like he already has you. Open up your heart again to the world, even if you are completely broken. It will get better. You will find someone better, you just have to allow yourself to. It’s OK to not be okay for a little while and that’s the beauty of life but don’t ever give up completely. Be alone and find yourself, find out exactly who you are and want you want. Make new friends or find a new hobby. Fall in love with life and one day, eventually, you will find someone who loves you for you. You can do it, trust me.
