Julia Michaels.

Oh, the things I could say about her.

She is one of my biggest inspirations and role models, and I love her with my whole heart. She means the absolute most to me, and getting to hug her was one of the greatest moments of my entire life.

I didn't know what to expect when I met her, because I know that when I met Niall, I didn't cry during the meet and greet, but I had a mental breakdown afterward. I didn't have much to go off of, as we were the very first show on her first headline tour and we had no idea what the meet and greet would look like.

Hugging Julia Michaels is the greatest feeling in the entire world. I won't go into detail about my meet and greet, because it was incredibly personal and intimate and I really want to savor the moments that I had with her, but she told me that she loved me and she would wear my bracelet on stage and wiped my eyes with her jacket (that must have my makeup on it, now) and gave me so many hugs I don't think I have ever hugged a human being so much. She is the sweetest human being, and she truly is my best friend.

Getting to tell her how her music has changed my life and how she has inspired me to get help with my anxiety and become a better person meant everything to me, and having her know that she did that for me, that her lyrics and her voice got me through the toughest times, that meant something to me that I'll never be able to explain.

Having front-row seats made me cry. I touched the barrier and started hysterically crying. It could have been that I met her minutes ago and I hugged her and I was front row, but as soon as my hands touched the metal bars, I couldn't stop crying. Having been waiting outside since six in the morning and having a sunburn, being in the front row made everything incredibly worth it.

Julia is an incredible performer. She is smiling and happy and her confidence when everyone is singing is unprecedented. She is the sweetest soul and truly wants everyone to be having the time of their lives.

Julia's show began by a sign being put up that said "JUDGEMENT FREE ZONE" and the notepad said:

"ENCOURAGED: SINGING, DANCING, JUMPING, FEELING, LAUGHING" all checked off on a list.

Her happiness radiated when she walked onto the stage.

She spotted my best friend and me and gave us the biggest smiles, and I started crying because I felt how much I loved her.

She interacted with us throughout the entire night, especially during our favorite songs, and I haven't cried that much in months. I truly was so happy to be with her and be in the moment that nothing else in my life mattered for two hours and 15 minutes.

It wasn't until she left that I realized how much of an impact she had on me. She truly makes me so incredibly happy and joyful and makes me want to be unapologetically me.

I'll be seeing her next SOLD OUT SHOW in Chicago, Illinois next month, and I cannot wait to hug her again.

Until Chicago.

Happy Inner Monologue Tour.

Love,

A Gem and Your friend,

Caitlin x