It's a funny feeling when you know less and less what you want to do with your life as you grow older. Old is a relative term, seeing as I'm barely 20 and not even halfway through my junior year of college.
However, it's very evident to me that my middle school and high school self thought they knew more about what I wanted out of life than I do currently. Even starting freshman year, it was a downhill slope of confidence in who I am and what I want when I graduate.
After graduation? I don't even know what I want right now. And yeah, it is pretty scary. Actually, very scary, and it's a topic that keeps a lot of us up at night.
Some people seem to have their life panned out perfectly, and I used to be envious of that. It seems like such a great path to hold on to, knowing exactly what you plan on doing and working to fulfill it. Coming into college, I felt silly that I couldn't really tell people exactly what I wanted to do. Not because I didn't have many options, but because I wasn't sure which of those options was best for me. Heck, I didn't know 90% of the options out there existed.
I've come to realize recently that not being fully aware of what I want to do isn't a bad thing. It's a pretty awesome characteristic to have, and I never thought I'd come to terms with it.
If you're someone who doesn't have any idea what the hell they're wanting to do in the future, there's a good chance it's because you're living in the moment. And that in itself is pretty cool.
The more I learn and expose myself to, the more well rounded I become and I start to expand my passions in random directions I never would have considered before. The more I travel, I become fixated on a lifestyle where I am able to meet as many people as possible, and see as many beautiful places on Earth as I can.
I know that I will be okay, and if you have a mindset like me, so will you.
Life is full of adventures and learning and loving, and you shouldn't stop yourself short by feeling overwhelmed by external pressures telling you to decide your career path at a specific point. When you let yourself explore your interests in a way that allows you to grow, you'll end up with opportunities that completely change your life.. And there is definitely nothing bad about that.
