I write this article to the women who feel they are always running from their past.

I want to ask you something. “If God or Satan doesn’t care about your past…why do you!?”

The enemy can and will only use parts of your past against you if he knows you are still affected by them. When you refuse to give everything to God and try to hide parts of you in a dungeon (like he doesn’t already know) you are hindering your deliverance.

I want you to understand that you just aren’t that powerful to ruin God’s plan for you… and he did not give up on you or the plans for your life because of mistakes you feel you may have made.

I have spent so many years allowing the enemy to torment me. Making me feel worthless, and most importantly like a failure. Every time I would try to pick up my cross and walk with God I would hear the enemy laugh and say, “I’ll see you in a few weeks”; can you imagine how defeating that feels? But, I have discovered something recently.

In-order-for me to grow in Christ, in-spite-of my past, I had to stop expecting failure in my life. I had to stop attracting negativity because if you think negatively about yourself it only will flock to you becoming nothing but unneeded roadblocks in your life. I had to snatch and I mean SNATCH the reins of my life from the hands of the enemy himself and make a conscious decision to never allow myself to discourage myself again. I allowed him to place a veil over my eyes so the only thing I could see and hear was his perception of my life.

Meanwhile, while I was calling myself all type of names you could think of God was calling me a Woman of God. God was calling me victorious even when I couldn’t see my way out of a paper bag with a flashlight. He was calling me His even when I didn’t even acknowledge Him.

What I need you to understand is your past is placed behind you for a reason and the more you continuously turn around to view it, the longer you will take to uncover your breakthrough. The more you live in your past the less you will be able to progress in the future.

You are not damaged goods, you are not a slut, you are not useless, you are not unworthy. You are the daughter of a king, you are royalty. He is your father who loves you enough to see PAST your sin and come dwell in your house despite his level of perfection and righteousness, you are still enough in his eyes. Allowing Him to get into that place of shame, and pull out everything that is not like him.

2 Corinthians 12:9 states “Each time he said, ‘My grace is all you need. My power works best in weaknesses.’ So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses so that the power of Christ can work through me.” And because God isn’t seeking perfect children he is just in need of a willing heart, it makes me happy to discuss my past hurts in hope it will be the key to someone else’s prison. My biggest weakness was men, I loved the attention and just about everything that came with it. I lost my virginity at the age of 15 and since then it has been one meaningless, sex-driven relationship after another until I discovered the solution to my problem.

In order for me to attract a better outcome, I had to be a better outcome, my methods had to change, I had to stop inviting failure into my life. I finally embraced everything God said about me and less what I said about myself. I embraced the meaning behind those last three words Jesus uttered on the cross, “It is Finished”. And because of those words, everything that I went through and very lie the enemy told me was left on that cross. I was finally set free from the weight of my past, a weight I never had to carry in the first place.

I want you to keep pushing, only looking forward and allowing God to get the glory from it all. I promise you, your life isn’t over. You don’t have to stay where you are, there is more to life and there is more to God. Readjust your crown and keep walking in the light of your purpose, it may be a bumpy road but nothing easy is worth having.

I love you guys so much,

Have a blessed week

-Di

P.S: Here are a few things that have helped build my relationship with Christ, hopefully, they will help you too.

1). Pick up my cross every morning

- Exchanging my problems for God’s love and mercy.

2). Realizing that God is bigger than any problem, addiction, etc.

3). Realizing that I already have the victory in every situation. Trusting that God has already inspected THIS day and everyday 1st hand so there is NOTHING I cannot handle.

4). Stopped expecting the worst of myself

5). Forgave myself

- God can’t forgive you if you don’t forget yourself but also remember when he forgives, he forgets!

6). Applying God’s principles/promises to all aspects of my life.