Flying from Florida back home to Boston after a long week of spring breaking you would think I’d be utilizing those three hours to sleep. However this particular flight was beyond nerve-wracking from the take off to the landing. Boarding the plane that evening in Florida, I thought my biggest issue was my attire because I was coming home to 40 degree weather and dressed for summer. Having flown before I can assure you this experience was torture from having to sit near a rival college’s sports team to the plane shaking from the wind that I could have sworn I was legitimately down for count. Have you ever wondered what would happen if you’re plane crashed? Who/what would you think of knowing you were about to die? Well, first hand I had these thoughts, maybe it was all in my head or I was delusional from exhaustion. Either way I thought I was done for.

Luckily for me I am very much still alive, just a little shaken up (no pun intended). However these are some thoughts I frantically typed into my phone if the off chance it was retrieved with my body.

1. Wow I wish I got McDonalds one last time or at least remembered to eat; holy shit I'm starving.

2. How did I never look up the signs of whether or not the planes in danger and the flight attendants don't want you to know?

The lights have been on half the flight. Seriously they should stop shoving canned water and 100 calorie snacks in our faces and be straight up.

3. There is no way in hell that I would ever remember the safety instructions they said before take off.

Thank goodness as a child did I have to “stop drop and roll” ten times a year when the chances of my plane crashing is a lot more likely then me catching on fire.

4. What the actual fuck is the point of the emergency exits when the only exit is death or wearing seat belts because lord knows they'll be no help.

5. I will never know how that series I binged watch on Netflix ended or, you know, live to do anything else.

6. Scared to look back and see the damn flight attendants strap on a parachute and just "wing it." #everymanforthemselves

7. How is this broad next to me just casually reading a book, like, darling we may go under and I don't know; I'm just freaking out.

But seriously she hasn’t even gotten through a whole chapter.

8. My parent better not be left with my student loans because that's just not fair at all.

9. Shit I didn't even text my parents tell them I took off and now I just feel worse.

10. I'm surprisingly calm considering I'm stuck in the middle seat with some asshole packing a lip next to me.

(Even legal? I will never know).

11. I hope my friends will keep their promise made in seventh grade and post my Facebook status as "dead."

12. Seriously, what the hell it is 2016 did these asshole not check the weather for turbulence and what the fuck is turbulence.

13. Can someone just tell me if we are good or nah?

(Imagine my think Boston accent)

14. I have probably 20 unanswered texts because I was in Disney all week (and just someone who doesn't text back).

Now they are all going to think I didn't love/care for them. Cool.

15. It is one thing that this damn airline lost our luggage for an entire day but to take our lives really... awesome.

17. Literally I am the most dramatic person; cannot even stub my toe without a trip to the ER yet I'm surprisingly calm right now.

17. Just kidding my boyfriend pushed the arm rest down thus startling me and I almost shit a brick.

18. I'm so nervous I just made two 17s...this plane will not stop fucking shaking. OMG why am I the only one concerned?

19. My thought right now is, "Wow nothing else matters at this moment; my grades, (however my roommates would get a 4.0)."

You're welcome, guys! (Well I'm alive to post this to never mind). Or if I receive a great job post-graduation. All I'm thinking of is that it could be last moment in this life and I will not even be able to graduate, tell my friends and family I love them one last time or do anything ever again that brings joy to my life.

20. When the plane finally landed (hit the ground’s surface like it stole something). I could not help but be thankful that I have all these blessings in my life that so often we take for granted.

My thoughts were not, “I will never be successful in my career” or “I still have homework due.” I did not once think about the interview I had that went terrible or the assignments I had failed.

Now that I am safe on land I look back on my near death experience as a blessing. I had the opportunity to take a step back, gather my thoughts and realize just how lucky I am for my life. As for the grades, careers, relationships, mistakes we make or anything in life weighing us down, we must be more grateful for the things lifting us up. (just not the particular plane).