I have always been a fan of the late, great Michael Jackson. I could remember sitting in the living room with my parents and watching the "Black or White" music video and loving every second of it. I remember watching him moonwalk for the first time and being completely amazed and in awe. He was the greatest performer I've ever seen.
When I heard he passed away in 2009, I was in shock and really sad. I wasn't the biggest fan before he died, but when he did pass away, I really started to get into his music.
Now, in 2009, I was going to be a junior in high school. For me, high school was not fun. At all. I got made fun of constantly and I was very lonely throughout my time in high school. Jackson's music was my comfort during this time. When I would feel alone and that no one wanted to be my friend, I would listen to "You Are Not Alone" off his "HIStory" album. If I was angry about how I was treated by bullies, I would listen to songs such as "Leave Me Alone," "Why You Wanna Trip On Me" and "Scream."
In late 2010, I was extremely depressed, to the point of suicidal. I could remember coming home from school and turning on Jackson's "Dangerous" album, shutting my eyes and just escaping into his music for hours. I found that Jackson and I have a lot in common. He was a very lonely person, as was I in high school. He was misunderstood and made fun of for being who he was, and I can really relate to that.
The song I can say truly saved my life is the song "Stranger in Moscow" off of the "HIStory" album. The song was written and composed solely by Jackson himself when he was at the lowest point in his life. Even though he had thousands of fans who loved him, he still felt lonely. For me, even though I had my wonderful parents who love me no matter what, I still felt lonely. One of the lines that really sticks out to me is "How does it feel when alone and cold inside." It struck me because I realized that Michael Jackson, the biggest pop artist ever, was just like me: alone and sad.
I feel close to him, even to this day. I seriously believe he is my Guardian angel. I feel like he looks out for me from up above. His music is there when no one else is, and continues to inspire me and make me feel invincible. Jackson also taught me that no matter what this world throws at you to always be kind and always be willing to look at the man in the mirror.
I will be forever grateful for Michael Jackson. He made my life happier and was there though his music when no one else was