Everyone knows you. Wherever you are there is always someone shouting your name to say "hello." So many people would call you a "friend," some even a "best friend," but there is something no one knows...
Your friend count will never compare to the amount of nights you've spent alone wondering where all your "friends" are.
Everyone loves when you are around and calls you when they need something. You are one of the most liked people in any given room but yet you still find yourself laying in bed, on a Saturday night, with no text messages.
I would argue this is one of the hardest problems to cope with and no one around you understands. Your friends will never realize how lonely you are because of the huge smile on your face and positive attitude you have when they do invite you to do something or see you around. They will never see the look on your face while you lay in bed deciding whether or not to take your second nap of the day.
You've tried everything to make this feeling go away. You have joined all the organizations you can. You have filled your daily schedule to the tip top. You have tried it all, but yet the feeling of loneliness is still there.
You have a rush of thoughts going through your mind. Do I text my friends? Will they be annoyed? Should I get out of bed and go do something? Should I go back to sleep? Should I get on social media, look at my friend's post and feel sorry for myself? There are moments where you start to cry. There are moments where you feel unwanted. There are moments where you feel used. There are moments where you feel like nothing you do is ever enough...
I am here to tell you that these thoughts will never fix the problem. I am also here to tell you that there are better days. There are days without the feeling of loneliness but only if you strive to find these days. We control our own happiness. So I challenge you...text your friends, tell your friends how you are feeling (they probably did not even realize how you felt), seek support from your family, get out of bed, find a hobby that you love, look to God for answers and stop feeling sorry for yourself.
These things may not fix your problem right away but one day the feeling of loneliness will be removed. God will provide and your happiness will be restored.
