It's been awhile since I've sat down and written, or well typed, my thoughts down. I haven't really taken the time to ask myself "how are you really feeling?" I stay preoccupied 98 percent of my time that I don't ever ask myself that question.

But I think it is something that is important to ask ourselves often.

I have been out of school for only a week and I have felt as if all the feelings I have been suppressing for the entire semester have finally caught up to me and I am just completely overwhelmed.

Maybe it's the holidays getting me down or the fact that I have so much free time now that I'm not drowning in homework that I am able to be alone with my thoughts.

College has allowed me to pour every inch of my being into my homework and studying, but as the semester began winding down, I started to feel my emotions take off on a rollercoaster.

It began with thinking about the holidays that were coming up and the people who aren't around anymore that made the holidays worth celebrating.

I'm also at a weird social point in my life, where I realized that I have in fact made almost no friends in college and any friendships that began have unfortunately ended. This thought alone has really brought me down because I imagined at this point in my life, I would be surrounded by my girl gang, so if you're reading this and want to be friends, hiiii.

The holiday blues are so real this year.

It is extremely prevalent that people start feeling a little blue around the time of year when there is so much joy, but sometimes all that joy is overshadowed with missing loved-ones or life just not going how you imagined it to.

Lately I have only been focusing on the negatives in my life; the things I'm not doing or just small things that really aren't even that important, but they feel huge right now.

I'm usually the type of person who tries to snap out of it when I get down, but I haven't been able to do that lately. I have sort of let all the negative things consume me and it has caused me to be angry and bitter with myself.

I wanted to write all of this down and put it out into the world for those who might have similar feelings.

I feel alone a lot of times when these feelings come around, so I have to force myself to answer the "how are you really feeling?" question.

We're not going to be okay all the time and it's okay to acknowledge that. It's easy to get so busy that we forget about our hearts and our emotional well-being. Check on yourself often.

It's important to remind yourself that the sun will always rise not matter how the dark the days and nights might get. Even behind the clouds, the sun is still there.