Many already know that I’ve taken a “gap” year, which granted me the ability to relax and re-energize myself before returning to school (which I must say it was a year well deserved). I was able to sleep as long as I wanted and just be myself without having to worry about writing essays or getting graded. While I really appreciate the time I had off, I also have to be realistic; that year off was uneventful.

Now that my gap year is over, I started grad school and can only say that it’s about time I get my life straight. Even though it has been a while since I focused all of my time and energy to studying, I am quite excited even though I am extremely nervous. This past week gave me a glimpse of what I will be expecting and how it will prepare me for the career path I am interested in. Though I will be having to spend a lot of time researching topics that may not capture my attention, I know that continuing my education is a way to ease the restlessness and anxiety.

Although I may not know what the future holds for me and even though I might end up regretting taking a year break, I feel like whatever I will experience will prepare me for my career choice. Who knows, maybe this choice might help me change my path as well.

Either way, for now, my life will revolve around anything about grad school: from books piling up over the house to late night trips to Target or Walmart trying to buy ink cartridges to print out my completed essay for tomorrow’s class. Hello exhaustion, large cups of coffee and late nights of putting together class presentations; it's time for us to become close friends again. Goodbye to nights binge-watching TV shows on Netflix and afternoons driving around the city just to kill time. Adios to the life that I had and the temper I controlled. Sorry to those I pushed away because of my stress and best of luck to those that stick around despite what I threw at them. Hopefully, grad school is what I always wanted but never knew, until now.