An Introvert Who Wants to Be An Extrovert

Hi! I'm Hannah- the introvert that hates being an introvert. I can't be alone, can I?

You see, I actually love talking to people and dream about having the biggest, most wildest social life anyone has ever seen. When I wake up in the mornings, I have these ambitions of being the bubbly, annoying girl that everyone seems to love to hate. I want to be bright. I want to be happy. I want to be the most talkative girl you've ever came across.

When I wake up, I set goals to do all of this. I do.

But once the door closes and I walk out, all that changes.

I want to go back home. I want to be an antisocial blob of nothing in my bed.

As soon as I start talking to friends and complete strangers, I remember why I don't. It truly tires me, though, I am fully aware of how bizarre that sounds. I start off with a good foot, smile plastered on my face and a cheerful voice to fill the silence. Sometimes people respond with smiles. Sometimes it's mere silence.

Oh well.

It's okay, though. Because a few short minutes into accomplishing my bubbly dreams, I would rather go to sleep.

You see, this is the problem of being an introvert that hates being an introvert.

All I want to do is become one of those tireless, happy extroverts that seem to soar around groups of people without stopping. I want to be where the people are. But instead, I wear a RBF (resting bitch face) and plan an escape plan from any social event.

So to all those like me: know that it is perfectly okay to want to be social…but realize that you hate the mere idea of it.

Together we will made our voices heard. One day, maybe.

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