Getting Older Made Me Dread 'Fun' Holidays

Getting Older Made Me Dread 'Fun' Holidays

Sorry not sorry, I unapologetically hate New Years' Eve.


I cannot deny that as a child there was nothing better than a holiday that gave me an excuse to: a) get presents, b) see friends, c) stay up later than usual. Holidays like New Years' Eve and Fourth of July are what I lived for, despite the fact that my expectation never really met my reality. As I got older, my line of expectations kept moving further and further away from what actually occurred. And now, as much as I try to refresh my mind with the pre-adulthood excitement that came with all the so-called "fun" holidays, I just can't seem to feel anything but uneasiness when the season is upon us.

Let's face it, not having plans on a holiday like New Years' Eve is the absolute worst. And even though I'll try to deny it, I have no doubt in the power of the fear of missing out. Yeah, I said it. FOMO is real. And it creeps up the most right before Valentine's Day, Fourth of July, Halloween, and finally, New Years' (plus all the minor holidays in between).

Maybe it's because of my anti-holiday spirit or maybe (just maybe) it's because I never have a boyfriend on V-Day, but that is a BIG one for us holiday haters. It really isn't even the actual day that's filled with anxiety, it's the whole freaking month of February. Why one day has to define the whole month is beyond me, but it kind of sucks.

Finally, Valentine's Day is over, but next thing you know March rolls around and the Shamrock Shake is back. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing I don't like about some St. Patty's Day spirit, but to all who know me - do not pinch me, I probably won't be wearing green.

Now it's May, and we can't forget about every party-lover's favorite day: Cinco de Drinko. Oops, did I say Drinko? I meant Mayo. Cinco de Mayo. Just like that, FOMO strikes again. What exactly is Cinco de Mayo? Despite common misconceptions, it is NOT Mexican Independence Day. In fact, it isn't even celebrated in Mexico. So why do I have to be worried about having a Cinco de Mayo party to go to in the US?

The next major dreadful day is America's favorite, the Fourth of July. You might be thinking: what's not to like? Summer, fireworks, BBQs, and PARTYING. Yeah, it is pretty great - if you have something to do. If not, it's another anxiety-filled holiday where you feel like you have to be having fun in order to live up to the day's potential. On any regular summer day I'd be perfectly happy watching Netflix, eating yummy food, and maybe going to the beach. But no, Fourth of July must be better.

Ugh. Same goes for Halloween. Ah, spooky season is so fun, right? Who doesn't love hearing "Monster Mash" on the radio in the middle of September? Personally, all of October is a frenzy including trying to figure out what to dress up as and what to do on Halloween. Because again, if you're sitting at home passing out candy, you're just not living up to the "fun" potential that is Halloween.

Last but not least, there's our beloved New Years' Eve, the ultimate party holiday. This one might be the most depressing to not have plans for, because come on, waiting up to watch the ball drop on TV in bed and falling asleep at 11:59pm is just plain sad. And even if we do have plans, there's the whole New Years' Kiss ordeal that keeps the stress flowing. Basically, the chances that this holiday will meet our expectations are slim to none - leaning more toward none.

Simply put, the hype around these holidays tends to ruin them for me. I hate to be such a downer, but adulthood has made me realize that I would so much rather party on my own terms than stress about forcing myself to have fun.

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13 Summer Struggles Only Thick Girls Understand

Chafing. So much chafing.


Summer is a lovely time. A time of cookouts, swimming, and sunny weather. But if you're a " thick girl," summer sometimes brings more unpleasantries than it does for slimmer women. No matter how beautiful and confident you are in your body, it can bring some struggles.

1. The living hell that is shorts-shopping

Step 1: Find the biggest size the store has.

Step 2: (If you can even get those on): Realize your stomach is being squeezed into the top, your butt is falling out of the back and your thighs are having the life squished out of them.

Step 3: Realize why winter isn't so bad.

2. And dealing with them even after finding a pair that "fits"

Nothing like taking a pair of shorts home you remember fitting you okay in the store and then walking for 45 seconds and pulling them out of your butt or crotch 17 times. Truly a magical experience.

3. And every bathing suit you try on shows more skin than you'd planned

Even the most conservative bathing suit turns into cleavage-city and a non-cheeky set of bottoms turns into a thong. I promise, older people glaring at me in my sexual bathing suit, I didn't mean for this to happen!

4. Chafing. So much chafing.

No better feeling than four minutes into wearing short shorts realizing that your inner thighs are literally tearing themselves apart. Body Glide and baby powder are a thick girl's No. 1 necessity.

5. Loving rompers. Rompers not loving you.

Rompers are made with short and skinny girls in mind. Heaven forbid you're not short, and heaven forbid you're not skinny. Rompers are like a mystical article of clothing that, no matter what, always just barely doesn't fit.

6. Imagining wearing a sundress with a strapless bra and just laughing

Of course, not all thick girls are well-endowed in the boob department, but if you are, you understand how hilarious the thought of you wearing a strapless bra truly is.

7. And bralettes are a thing of fantasy

Once again, bralettes are designed for a very specific body type. One that I do not fall into.

8. Feeling like you need to constantly defend yourself for dressing like you want to

There are so many posts and tweets and just general ideals that people have that certain sized women can't wear certain clothing. You shouldn't feel the need to defend yourself for wearing a cute crop top or a bikini, but you will.

9. And always feeling looked at when you're rocking your swimsuit

Yes, I see your judging eyes, and yes, they are making me feel like shit. It doesn't matter how confident you are in your body, people looking at you like you just killed somebody just because you're wearing something typically made for smaller women doesn't make you feel good.

10. Did I mention chafing?

I just felt like something so horrible couldn't just be mentioned once.

11. Online shopping for cute summer outfits and then none of them fitting you correctly

There's always the dreaded "one-size-fits-all" for plus-size women. As if there's just one way to be plus-size. No matter how much they promise online that it'll fit well, it won't.

12. Seeing tiny girls complaining about losing their "summer bodies"

So many tweets talking about choosing food over a summer body. So many profile pictures of traditionally skinny women. I'm not saying that thick girls are the only ones who can complain about their summer bodies, and thick girls do not have a monopoly one not feeling confident in their bodies. But it is hard to see those posts knowing that those women would be glorified in their swimwear while you'd be gawked at.

13. The "you go girl!" comments on your oh-so-brave bikini photos

Compliments are nice, and positive comments while wearing a bikini go a long way. But the dreaded "you go girl" comment just seems so condescending. Just treat me like anyone else you'd see wearing a bikini. I promise, I'd like to feel like that.

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To The Stressed Out College Student, Be Optimistic For Spring Quarter

I am looking forward to a productive spring quarter.


As a strenuous ten weeks of winter quarter is finally coming to a close, there is no better feeling than to be rewarded with a week of spring break. For most colleges and universities, this period of time is one of excitement and relief, as students approach a summer vacation that begins in May. Yet, for students with schedules revolving around the lovable (and often hatable) quarter system, it feels as though summer is far from our reach.

On a personal note, my previous ten weeks of classes have been bearable at best. I can proudly say that I have been counting down the days until spring break since our winter quarter began in January, though now that the week is finally approaching, I am reminded by the fact that I have yet another ten weeks of school in the near future. Interestingly enough, I have not started the countdown to June 18th quite yet. Instead, I am looking forward to a productive spring quarter that will leave me feeling energized and accomplished as I enter into a fresh summer.

I believe that the spring quarter withholds a sense of refreshment and newfound energy in comparison to that of fall and winter. Though students on the quarter system will end classes later than others, there is something to be said for spending days on campus when the warm weather finally breaks. Time seems to pass faster than it did in the dark and ominous weeks of winter quarter, and everyone seems to have a more positive attitude - as we can all see that vacation is approaching.

To the stressed out college student, be optimistic for spring quarter. Though tests and finals will still be ever-present, the completion of another ten weeks of classes is excellent motivation to achieve success and reward yourself within the coming months.

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