How My Hair Transformation's Have All Been A Devotion To The New Me

How My Hair Transformation's Have All Been A Devotion To The New Me

When I change my hair, I feel like a different person.


When someone goes through a hard time, sometimes they decide to dye their hair a different color. Hair is something if you mess up, it'll eventually grow back, change the color, or wear a wig. I'll refer to different points of my life by what color my hair was at the time, saying stuff like, "Oh, I was so much more fun when I had red hair" or "I was at the highest point in my life when my hair was black" etc.

(For reference, I've colored my hair; red, black, purple, back to black, green, and now blue.)

I first colored my hair when I was 19, and I felt like a needed a change. At the time, I was constantly stressed, and after looking at some photos on Instagram for reference, I made the appointment with my stylist. At the time, I'd rather pay for someone else to do my hair professionally, than do it myself and mess up. I L-O-V-E-D having red hair and my confidence went way up. I felt like I stood out a little more, rather than what I felt like, blend in with everyone else around me. This is the time when I'd go out more, was more social, was easier going, and overall, I felt like I was happy.

When I was over the red, I decided to have it dyed black, I naturally have really dark brown hair and in certain lights. I felt like black would be easiest, because it would cover up all of the red dye, and you couldn't tell when my natural hair grew in. Again, my confidence boosted during this time. I didn't stand out anymore, but I felt like it really complimented my complexion and personality. During this time, I traveled to a county I'd always wanted to visit, Japan, with my best friend at the time, was voted into a leadership position, when to my first anime convention, and met/grew closer to many wonderful people who helped shape me into who I am today.

Now I'll admit I jumped the gun a bit when I decided to dye my hair purple. I wanted a more drastic change, and purple is one of my favorite colors. The color didn't come out as bright as I would've preferred, it was a bit hard to see, but I still liked it. During this time, I felt like I was going a bit downhill. This was when my depression and anxiety was at its worst, I wasn't doing well in school anymore, and I wasn't sure what to do with my life. I dyed my black again after that, and I felt somewhat normal again, but all the stuff going on in my life wasn't going to magically get better just because I dyed my hair, and I knew that. I worked on bettering myself every day and got back into old hobbies that made me happy), such as photography and traveling, and socializing with the people closest to me.

Now last October, I decided that I wanted a little change again, but to save some money I was going to dye my hair myself. I only did the ends of my hair, rather than all of it, because I wasn't sure I could have colored hair where I worked, and because I normally wore my hair in a bun, I thought it'd be less noticeable. Well, I was wrong, but no one said anything to me about it, so I guess it was fine. I bleached my own hair and used Arctic Fox Iris and Aquamarine to make a teal color, only I added a little too much green and it came out as more of a green-blue, but I didn't care. I felt like a new person, I was in a happier place, and that's all I cared about. A month or two ago, I dyed my hair the Aquamarine color from Arctic Fox and have been loving it ever since.

Whether you do it yourself or have a professional do it, is up to you. It's something that isn't permanent, and I can change again and again. I don't think you need to dye your hair in order to feel better nor will it fix all of your problems, but I do think it can be a big confidence booster, even for a little bit.

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20 Small Tattoos With Big Meanings

Tattoos with meaning you can't deny.

It's tough to find perfect tattoos with meaning.

You probably want something permanent on your body to mean something deeply, but how do you choose a tattoo that will still be significant in 5, 10, 15, or 50 years? Over time, tattoos have lost much of their stigma and many people consider them a form of art, but it's still possible to get a tattoo you regret.

So here are 20 tattoos you can't go wrong with. Each tattoo has its own unique meaning, but don't blame me if you still have to deal with questions that everyone with a tattoo is tired of hearing!

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1. A semicolon indicates a pause in a sentence but does not end. Sometimes it seems like you may have stopped, but you choose to continue on.

2. "A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor."

3. Top symbol: unclosed delta symbol which represents open to change. Bottom symbol: strategy.

4. "There are nights when the wolves are silent and only the moon howls."

5. Viking symbol meaning "create your own reality."

6. Greek symbol of Inguz: Where there's a will, there's a way.

7. Psalm 18:33 "He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he causes me to stand on the heights."

8. 'Ohm' tattoo that represents 4 different states of consciousness and a world of illusion: waking (jagrat), dreaming (swapna), deep sleep (sushupti), transcendental state (turiya) and world of illusion (maya).

9. Alchemy: symbolizes copper, means love, balance, feminine beauty, and artistic creativity.

10. The Greek word “Meraki" means to do something with soul, passion, love, and creativity or to put yourself into whatever you do.

11. Malin (Skövde, Sweden) – you have to face setbacks to be able to go forward.

12. Symbol meaning "thief" from "The Hobbit." It was the rune Gandalf etched into Bilbo's door so the dwarves could find his house.

13. “Lux in tenebris" means “light in darkness."

14. Anchor Tattoo: symbolizing strength and stability, something (or someone) who holds you in place, and provides you the strength to hold on no matter how rough things get.

15."Ad Maiora" is translated literally as “Towards greater things." It is a formula of greeting used to wish more success in life, career or love.

16. A glyph means “explore." It was meant as a reminder for me to never stop exploring.

17. "Aut inveniam viam aut faciam," meaning roughly, "Either I shall find a way, or I will make one."

18. Lotus Flower. It grows in muddy water, and it is this environment that gives forth the flower's first and most literal meaning: rising and blooming above the murk to achieve enlightenment.

19. The zen (or ensō) circle to me represents enlightenment, the universe and the strength we all have inside of us.

20. Two meanings. The moon affirms life. It looks as if it is constantly changing. Can remind us of the inconsistency of life. It also symbolizes the continuous circular nature of time and even karma.

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10 Problems Girls With THICK Hair Always Get Tangled Up In

"Wow, you have so much hair!"


When you have thick hair, you're very well aware of all the problems that come with it. For those of you who do not have thick hair, here are just 10 things people with thick hair have to go through.

1. You always feel hot because your hair is just SO thick 

On the plus side, our hair can be used as ear muffs when it's cold. On the down side, summer (and "spring" and "fall" if you live in the south).

2. Shedding 

How'd that hair get there?! No one knows.

3. You go through ponytail holders like nobody's business 

Have you ever broken a ponytail holder the FIRST time you tried to use it? Well, thick-haired people have.

4. Don't even bother brushing 

If you have thick AND curly hair like moi, brushing is NOT an option unless your hair is wet.

5. Speaking of wet hair...

Oh, you want your hair DRY? Good luck with having dry hair after you shower. It'll be a while.

6. Want to dye your hair?

Be prepared to spend all day at the hair salon. You have to go through ROUNDS of bleach before you can even start to color your hair. And also be prepared to shell out at least $100.

7. You have to style you hair in LAYERS 

You'd be better off just putting it in a ponytail and calling it a say. Ain't nobody got time for that!

8. Short hair? Good luck!

Having short thick hair, while taking less time to wash, is even EXTRA thick because the curls have nowhere to go.

9. Long hair? In summer?

If you've ever had long thick hair, you'll know that summertime is the. Absolute. Worst. You're sweating not even five seconds of being outside and the frizz. Oh my goodness, the frizz.

10. Headaches 

With you hair being on top of your head all the time, headaches are a natural occurrence.

On the plus side, my hairdresser always says "wow your hair is so thick!"

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