A week before I started school at the best university in Texas, I attended Foundation Retreat which is a Christ-centered camp for incoming freshman which was the best decision I made at college after deciding on Texas Tech. It's amazing, if you're coming to tech...GO! I promise you won't regret it.
Anyways, I thought about being a counselor there this year, but I didn't think I was qualified enough. I didn't think I was a good enough person or I would make a good leader for small groups.
I have literally said before "God doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called" but I supposed that didn't apply to me. I forgot about it and then closer to camp, I began to really regret not applying. (But you can bet you're bottom dollar I'll be the first one to this year!) Lots of my friends were there and got to make friends with like-minded individuals and pour into these new college kids lives. The counselors aren't perfect, they're college students just like me who struggle and break down and sin just like me. But they're not leading kids because of anything they do or they've done, its God working through them.
My insecurity led me to being prideful because it was all about me, me, me and not God, God, God. I was focused on what I had done or not done and less focused on what God has done through me and can do through me.
Moses was called by God to deliver the Israelites out of Egypt, but said "Who am I (to bring the Israelites out of Egypt)?" and God told him "I will be with you." (Exodus 3:11-12) Then in chapter 4, God gives Moses 3 signs, and still Moses gave the excuse that he wasn't an eloquent speaker and was "slow of speech" as if God wasn't fully aware, oh we mere humans are funny. God told him He would help him speak, but Moses in his insecurity, said to send someone else. God wasn't calling the best speaker or naturally qualified for this job, but He was ready to qualify and help Moses do the job He called him to do. In chapter 4 verse 13, Moses says "Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else." however a definition of a servant according to biblestudytools.com is "one who is obedient and faithful to God". Moses in his disobedience and reluctantness would hardly be qualified as a servant by this definition in this instance.
God doesn't ask us to do more than we are capable of and is already planning on helping us poor little sheep who would definitely not make it on our own. I pray that we would not be unwilling and disobedient to do what God calls us to do and that we would have a true servant's heart and the confidence to trust in God that He knows what He's doing in His plan for our lives.
