One thing that I’ve learned throughout the past 5 years is that it’s okay to lose friends. Sure it sucks but it’s just a part of life. The beautiful thing about it is that they all made you the person that you are today in some way, shape or form. I’m very grateful for all my past and present friends because they have all influenced my life and in a positive way for the most part. When you were in high school you had an absolute best friend who you were attached at the hip with. You NEVER dreamed of anything coming between the two of you. You were going to be in each others weddings and become pregnant at the same time. You were going to call each other every single night when you both went off to separate colleges. The fact of the matter is that life just happens and you go your separate ways. It wasn’t anyone’s fault but a silent distance grew between you two and there’s nothing you can really do the rekindle that bond. You text each other and say, “Omg girl I haven’t seen you in forever! Let’s hang out soon!” It seems like a great plan but deep down you both know you aren’t really going to hang out. You just want them to know you’re putting forth the effort. And if you do hangout, it’s not even close to the same. You catch up on each others lives and laugh a little but it’s just kind of weird. I think it’s hard to look at someone who used to be your best friend and realize that now they’re just an acquaintance. You used to stay up until 3 in the morning with this person and laugh until you had tears rolling down your face. You ugly cried with them for hours over stupid stuff. You told each other your deepest secrets. You stuffed your faces together with everything in sight because it was that time of the month. Isn’t it crazy that all those memories eventually become so distant? Don’t get me wrong there are some friendships that never die and it carries with them throughout life and I respect that so much. It’s just not something I have been able to do. When I graduated high school, I played college softball and most of my friends in high school just didn’t understand my lifestyle and I was always too absorbed in the sport and my new life and my new friends. Was it a little selfish? Completely. But I’ve learned that it’s okay because I want to thank them for making who I am today.
The friends you currently have now are awesome. I think your college friends will be the ones who make it with you til the end. I say that just because you’ve gone through so much with one another and as you become older you realize the amazingness of a true friend. The kind that will drop everything to come help you or be bluntly honest with you when you don’t want to hear it. Or the friend who texts just to see what’s up or how’s it going. Those are the friends you need to hold dearly and never take for granted.
