It all happened quite suddenly. One week we were running into each other on campus and I was smiling and laughing at something you said. I said "see you later", having no idea that I wouldn't actually see you later. After seeing you, I texted you so we could hang out because I missed you dearly. We made plans, but those plans never happened. You left before we got to see each other one last time. So, here I write to you what I wish I could've said before you left me.
You were one of my best friends. You were some of my very best friends. You were the person that I could go to about anything and I knew you would always be there for me and make sure I was okay. We cuddled together constantly. The times when we got breakfast together at least twice week were the best moments of my week. Being able to hang out with you early in the semester while I had the chance are the moments I will never take for granted.
Every day it hurts. Every day gets a little better but I still think about you all the time. I wish I could hug you one last time. I wish I could hear your voice and bottle up your laugh. We have a million memories together but now I won't ever see you again. Every day I ask why and wonder how this all could have happened. It's a cycle. I get hurt. I get angry. I get sad. At the end of it all though, I know you are in the arms of God. You are at peace. You're in a better place than you were before. I keep looking at old photos of us. I printed pictures out in summer to hang up on my bedroom walls and many of them were with you.
I may not have known you for your whole life but even a second with you and you could make anyone feel that they just found their soulmate. You can make anyone feel like they have known you forever. You were a friend to anybody who needed one. You could take the shy ones (like me) and push them out of their comfort zone. You were able to make anyone who felt like they didn't have a friend, feel like they just gained a best friend.
That is what you were to me. You pushed me out of my comfort zone and made me feel like I could do truly do anything. I trusted you with my life. I can't ever get over the fact that I won't be able to see you again. It has gotten easier but not a day goes by where I don't wish I could spend those days with you.
I told you how much I missed you when we didn't see each other after awhile and I spoke to you about how you were my first college friend which involved into a best friend forever but I would do anything to say it to you again.
Best friends, true friends, trusted and loved friends, are friends for life no matter where they may be. When I think about never seeing you again it hurts my heart but then I think about our many memories together and our many amazing moments together full of friendship, love and happiness and it fixes the cracks in my heart. Thanks, babe, for being a friend when I needed one the most. Stay shining (and goofy) up there, my forever friend.
