For a while I would sit wondering how I could fix things. I was upset that I wasn’t even given the opportunity to fix what we once had. I look back and realize how much of my life was spent making memories that would one day mean nothing to you and it hurts. There are very few things in life that can make you feel as low as losing a bestfriend who you thought would be by your side through everything.

Every once in awhile I will see you tagged in a picture on someone else’s page, or someone will bring up your name, and for that one second, you will feel that pain again. But soon after you will remember how things are and you will forget. I can’t lie and say that every once in awhile, I consider texting you.. or calling you to see how things are. I want to ask if we can fix things, or if you’re ready to talk. But then I look around and see how awesome life is. And maybe.. just maybe.. I don’t need you anymore. I look at all of my amazing friends and see the people who care about me the most. You didn’t care, so why should I?

I never deleted our pictures on my phone because I don’t want to forget all of the amazing times we had growing up. Sometimes when I stumble upon them, it brings tears to my eyes. But again, those are just memories. I truly hope that things are going well for you and that life is everything you’ve hoped it would be. But I also wish you knew that you didn’t win. You didn’t take anything from me, other than your friendship. I’m fine. And I have found amazing friends that would never do that to me. So there it is. I hope you see this and know that I do not regret any of our friendship. What I regret is how it ended. But for now, I’m off doing my own thing.. and I hope you are as well.