One sweet potato in the morning for breakfast. That's all I'll have to make up for yesterday. Maybe I'll add an egg on the side. But then I'll have to fry the egg, which means I'll have to use oil. But the egg will give me the protein I need to stay fuller for longer, and I won't be tempted to eat more later. It's an investment. But that's going to add like 90 more calories. Better not. I'll put the egg back.
I see milk in the refrigerator. We have that banana nut crunch cereal in the pantry that I really like. It's been forever since I've had it. It's 230 calories for a cup though... plus the milk... I'll just have one small bowl. But I want more. I'll just have one more small bowl. And then it will count as one serving. It's almost lunchtime anyways. I'll just skip lunch to make up for it.
Besides, I'm going to the gym later, and I want to have enough energy to make the workout effective. I can't be drowsy at the gym. That was so good. Maybe just one more bowl. I'm using weights today anyways. There's M&M ice cream sandwiches in the freezer. Those are my favorite. Mom rarely buys those. Better have one while I can. I'm kinda full though. But it tastes so good. This was going to be my dessert later tonight anyways. I'll just have it now instead of after dinner. That was so good.
I kinda want something else to eat. But I'm full now. There isn't really anything to eat here. But I still wanna eat. I'll have another bowl of cereal, just to finish up the milk in the fridge. No use in saving that little bit. I feel so gross. My stomach is bulging out so much. And there is so much extra fat drooping from my sides. It's never looked this way before. I used to be so much skinnier.
I want to get back to the way I was. No use in trying to lose weight today. I've already ruined it. Maybe I'll just make today my last day of eating whatever I want before I start to diet for real. That's what I said yesterday. I feel so sick. I can't go to the gym feeling like this. Maybe I'll just sleep it off and go later. I hate what I've done to my body. I look so fat. I'm so fat. How did I get so fat?
Honestly, the only option right now is to eat like a maximum of 500 calories per day. I watched people do it in videos online and they lose like 7 pounds in three days. And once I reach my goal, I'll slowly start to eat more again to go back to being normal. It'll be good. I may be miserable, but I'm miserable already. And I'd rather be miserable and skinny than miserable and fat.
