I see you. I know you. I feel all of your feelings.

The sudden rage to want to scream at the world while you fall on your knees. The sudden urge to want to cry for days and days unending. When you want to just crawl in a whole and disappear until you feel better. The feeling like you have no voice. I KNOW HOW YOU ARE FEELING.

It's hard some days, I know. I know it is a struggle to get out of bed because if you sleep you can't feel anything. You feel angry, emotional, sad, numb, and it hit you out of no where. You feel like nobody understands, but even if they did you can't get the words out of your mouth to say what is going on. You have all of these thoughts and emotions going on, but you all of a sudden forgot how to speak. I know your pain. I know it hurts and it sucks. I know what it's like to want to talk and scream at the same time but you just can't because your brain won't communicate with your mouth. I know it hurts every. single. time.

Have the fear that if you talked about what's going on in your brain that people would think you were crazy? Yeah, I know that feeling too. That is partly the reason why I have never spoken up for myself. I have always been afraid that someone would put me down for feeling this way or ask questions. When all I really need is for someone to hold me for just a little bit while I fall apart. All of this is a strong feeling. Sometimes over-powering. But here is the thing you have to face. THIS IS ALL REAL AND YOU ARE NOT CRAZY FOR FEELING THIS WAY.

In the midst of all of these feelings, you need to take time for yourself. Time to relax and unwind. Close your eyes. Take a deep breath. Put one foot in front of the other. Breathe again and keep pushing forward.

Take a bath, do a face mask, pick out a cute outfit to wear the next day. DO ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING THAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER. Don't be afraid to pamper yourself during this time. That is very important. Learn to love yourself while feeling this way. I can't tell you how long you will feel like this, but I can tell you that it will get better with time. Just keep your head up.

Listen babe, you do you. You worry about yourself and focus on feeling better. Remember that you are not the only one who feels like this. There are other people who know exactly how you feel. Keep going because you are doing great.

XOXO;

The girl who is just like you.