When I was 13, my friend introduced to One Direction, little did I know much of any impact that boyband from the United Kingdom would have on me. I have seen them twice in concert, dedicated hours upon hours of listening to their music, learning everything about them, and essentially dedicated 4 years of my life to them. I know I sound so juvenile and obsessed but they were my idols. I loved them and still but I also grew up.
You should have seen my walls, they were covered with their faces, if you don't know the group members, there were five. Harry Styles, the unofficial frontrunner with the curly locks that could and did make anyone swoon. Zayn Malik, who infamously left two years ago, Liam Payne, my favorite member who just became a dad, Niall Horan, the little blue eyed Irish man who sings This Town and Louis Tomlinson who was recently arrested for battery at an airport. What a group. Before drama happened, before life took a toll on me or them, it was easy. Listen to the music, buy their music, tweet on my fan account how much I love them and repeat the cycle. It was the life but then Zayn left.
I was devastated, I cried and tweeted and wondered how thus could happen not realizing that this is what happens, everyone goes solo and tries to make a living but from that point on, something changed. In my teenage eyes, they were perfect and now it had changed. The four boys made another album but after that, radio silence for One Direction.
I told myself I wouldn't stop being their fans. That nothing had changed but something did change, me. I stopped listening to their music as much, stopped going on my fan account, took their notifications off, I just stopped. Though my story is about One Direction, former fangirls and fanboys, I understand. Fan fiction is no longer book of choice, late nights are not to listen to new song releases but now, it's different. But it's ok, teen idols come and go, that's just the business. We grow up, we change but all my former fangirls and boys understand me when I say, once a fan, always a fan.
