FACT: College is scary.
Going into college I thought I had this fitting idea of what I wanted to do with my life. For some odd reason, I felt like I knew myself. What a juvenile notion to have, because as a sophomore in college, I now realize I know nothing about what I want or what I want to do with my life. This realization has been long coming and honestly, expected. I never felt in place when I thought about my major or career choice, but now, I have finally come to accept it and move on.
If anyone is reading this, and in the same boat:
- I apologize, because I know this is one of the worst feelings to have.
- You are not alone. At least, that’s what I keep telling myself.
FACT: Wrong decisions are inevitable.
Sometimes, I feel like my life is just full of wrong choices. One after the other, after the other. What I have learned from this excruciating experience is that sometimes, the wrong decisions I’m making aren’t always wrong. For example, my current “wrong decision” as my mom would label it, is changing my major….again. How am I going to come to accept THIS choice? No idea. But somehow I know it’s better than picking a major with stability that I hate. And it is.
FACT: There is no magic 8 ball that tells you what will make you happy.
Maybe the reason I have changed my major so often is because I don’t know what will make me happy in the future. I spent a lot of time trying to figure out some predestined formula to my happiness, aka, my career choice. If you know me in real life, you probably know this is one of my biggest struggles, the unknown. But what if your career isn’t the only source of happiness in your life.
I realized that I placed way too much importance on being a strong, independent, open-minded woman. Someone who doesn’t need anyone or anything except for an education and strong mind that, I didn’t realize that vary stigma might not be the true source of goodness. It might actually even be hurting me, because in fact, I do not know if this will or will not make me happy. This is a topic I am still extremely indecisive about and plan to write more about in the future, but for the most part, you get the gist of it.
The truth about college that people rarely talk about is that sometimes it sucks. No, it doesn’t always suck, and there are definitely more pros than cons. But honestly, you think you got through the hardest portion of your life, where they say your young, and looking for yourself, and growing and learning. But it doesn’t end there. In reality, college magnifies that feeling.
They tell you, ‘go to college, it’ll get better, you’ll find what makes you happy.”
I do think this may be true for some, but not all.
The important thing to remember is that it doesn’t only magnify the hard part. College allows you to delve into the things that truly interest you and make you happy. So don’t waste it by holding back and being to scared to change your major.
