I am often surprised when I look through my writing pads at the lines scribbled late in the night, between customers at work, or while waiting in a doctor’s office, and how they can ring so true, or, at least be humorous in their vacancy of constraint. At times I have considered linking these meanderings together in some way; making a unified collection of what goes on inside a thought-filled-mind. I’d call it Existential Hotdish, because I am often merely reaching for some sort of sense in it all, or at least to feel okay about things.
Irony
It turns out: most men would really rather that you BE “like all those other girls.”
I want to look up the definition of demoralizing, but my phone has a virus
This isn’t the kind of poetry you want to read aloud.
Word that beg to linger, cause when you say them fast no one gets it,
and then its over and no one can remember.
Us Girls
And we’ve always been good at ignoring risks.
If you say so. I’m sure you are right.
Then we suffer quietly and cope with the aftermath.
Big changes or shifts in our lives happen in our lives, and then we just go on. Not giving them enough credit for the weight they carry.
“you’re living in a dreamscape..” Grace and Frankie quote
Give in
It can feel so unsettling not knowing something. Feeling up in the air.
Be calm. Just live it.
How the fields look when there’s snow cover and a full moon
I decide that I want to go visit the early April beach. Walking on uneven ground and hearing the waves coming in is nice.
“I don’t know whose problem it is..” Alabama Shakes
I don’t know what it all means, but sometimes just jotting down my confusion can really set me free. What sets you free?
