If we're being completely honest, there are a ton of things I want in my life.
I want the new iPhone 7. I want a significant other (mainly for the cute Insta pictures). I want to be engaged. I want to get an A in all of my courses this year. I want more money. I want a sweet puppy to cuddle. I want to have a house and a career. I want to get into med school. I want to know who A is. I want a family. I want cuter clothes. I want I want I want...
It's so easy to get wrapped up in this nature of entitlement. All around us are people who are leading such perfect lives on their newsfeed, when ours continues to fall short. Because of that, it's no wonder why we get so focused on wanting our life to be just a little bit better in some aspects. We just want to be like (or be better than) everyone else. It's like middle school all over again, simply trying to fit in with what society and wanting everything that that entails.
But, to put it nicely, sometimes what we want is not exactly what we need.
There is a big difference between wants and needs. I still struggle with telling them apart, but at some point in time, the blinders start slowly fading away. To simply put it, wants are only what we think we need. And more often than not, our wants are the farthest thing from what we need at the moment.
So yes, I want to be engaged, and I want to have a family, and I want to get into a medical program and I want a plethora of other things that I think will make me happy, but it's taken me some time to realize that I want what God wants me to have.
We spend so much of our time trying to make all these great plans become a reality when God is just sitting back shaking his head, knowing He has something WAY better in store. God has a plan for me. He has a plan for you. And wow, is it more than we can ever think of. And in some cases, your future plan may not be something you think you "want" right now. All of the things I want will come in time with prayer and faith in the Lord. Even if something I think I want does not become a reality, I will know that it was something I didn't need.
One day I'll have an awesome marriage (with a husband with brown hair and pretty eyes), and a family (a set of twins, a boy and a girl), and a great career (an optometrist with my own practice), and I'll finally know who A is, but until that day comes, I will hold tight to the promises that God has given me. I will remain positive that what I want in my life at the moment is not what God intended for me to have just yet. I will have faith that the Lord will bless my life and provide more blessings than I could ever imagine.
There is nothing in the world I want more than that.
