Everyone you love will die. Your parents will die, your grandparents, maybe even your siblings. They will all leave.
The sooner we as a society accept this, the easier our lives will be.
The fear of death motivates people to do ridiculous things. The Make A Wish foundation was founded on the principle that death should be sweet, things should be completed before the end. Physician assisted suicide, however controversial it may be, is used when the patient would rather take control of their death rather than let their disease take its toll.
YOLO means "you only live once". It is a saying that often accompanies rash actions and grand risky decisions. I'm all for motivational slogans but this one in particular really stood out. I've been trying to live a more honest existence. There will always be people in your life who are looking for loopholes. They are looking for the smallest indiscretion in your stories and your life and the people around you. If you live an honest existence, no one can ever catch you in a lie.
You will learn that not everything is as it seems. You will learn that there are more than two sides to almost every drama story. You will learn to not build your dreams and plans on a foundation that might not want the same things as you. You will learn that you can only really count on yourself because at the end of the day, only you can give yourself hug when you're on the floor crying about things you don't understand.
I was in the car with my parents and my grandparents and it was late at night. It was before Christmas so all the lights were on and everything was beautiful. I looked at these four wonderful adults around me and nearly threw up thinking about life without them.
I'm scared of the future. I'm scared that I won't accomplish my goal. One of my big goals is to speak at my graduation but I'm fairly sure that that goal is no longer achievable. I've been watching a lot of Parks and Rec recently and it's inspired me to work in government. I want to fight for music at high levels and fight for the music education that everyone deserves. From there I want to get married and have kids and a house and a Golden Retriever. I want a lot of things in my future but inevitably I'll die.
My brain is a terrifying place.
