My name is Sarah Watson, and I am a procrastinator. They say the first step to overcoming your problem is to recognize exactly what you are doing. I recognize that I am a procrastinator...yet I still do not do anything to change it.
More than anything, I want to be a better student. I want to be that person that will go home every day from class and study for three hours before they go off to work. When they get home from work, they get another hour done and then doze off to bed knowing they got their days worth of homework out of the way.
I was never someone who had to study through high school. The night before the test, I would review my notes for two, maybe three hours, and then crank out an A, easy as that.
Three years into college and I'm still using the same study methods for the most part. I'll tell you right now that they do not work in my favor as well as they used to. Some tests have worked in my favor, but I have some solid F's under my belt that should have encouraged me to do better.
Papers on the other hand... I guess I just need the stress to succeed. I am that person that will wait until the day before a paper is due to start working on it. Each time there are tears, each time there is at least one five minute breakdown with tear shedding and cursing myself.
I do it time and time again, probably because I still bust out A's on those assignments, but honestly the mental breakdown just shouldn't be worth it. That overnighter renders me useless for the following day, and the procrastination cycle occurs all over again.
I tell myself that if I would have just started the paper a week ago, my stress levels would have reached a quarter of what they got to. Had I started a week ago, there probably would have been time to proofread before submitting the assignment. But same old, same old, here I am procrastinating yet another assignment as I sip my coffee and eat my Cheez-its.
The lulls of Netflix and my newest book I got on clearance are all too enticing to sit down and focus on all the information that could clutter my brain. Speaking of...new season of New Girl is calling my name.
Over and out,
From a None Recovering Procrastinator
