1. I forgive, but I NEVER forget.
Although I am one of the most understanding people in the world, I never forget how a person treats me. I can well understand any situation a person is going through. I can give advice and comfort people through all things that life throws around. But one thing that I cannot and will not ever forget, is how a person made me feel. How a person treated me, my friends or family. I understand that people go through difficult times and they struggle with cooping with their emotions- I get that can lead to impromptu words and actions. But if someone ever intentionally hurts me or someone I care about; I will not forget. I remember the character shown that day. Some call it holding onto grudges, I call it keeping me and the ones I love safe.
Some people are so quick to forget the wrongs done by another, you can forgive with every once of your being, but never ever FORGET what they did. This way you are aware of what they are capable of.
2.I aggressively worry about the future.
The best way for me to explain this, my mind thinks in future-tense. Every decision I make, every opportunity that is presented to me (or discussed around me) my mind runs with it. I constantly live in this world of "what if I do this?", "What if I decide to go here?", and "but what if I decide to do this instead?". I want so much for myself, as does anyone, that I can not stand the fact that there are opportunities or life paths that I might not take and most likely never will. I dream big and most of the time, that stems anxiety about things years down the road and that I will most likely have no control over. I literally must remind myself daily that, I do in fact have time. I do not need to have my life figured out at 21 years old, heck I don't even have to have it figured out when I am 30!
3. My favorite down time is watching movies- getting lost in someone else's world.
Curl up on the couch with a good movie? Yes, PLEASE! Do you want to make popcorn, hide away in blankets and get lost in a good show? I am there for it. I love them for the same reason I love books. It is like an escape. You forget about the world around you for a little bit, you get lost in the magic of what could be or how did they. I mean, I truly connect with the characters. I feel the pain, joy and sorrow they portray. Getting lost and living in someone else's world for an hour or two is so relaxing to me.
4. I love to write.
The same idea lays behind writing for me, as it does with watching movies or reading a book. I get lost during the time I spend writing. Whether that writing is a journal, a blog, a text, or a simple thought I need to jot down. There is something so peaceful about writing your thoughts and feelings as apposed to speaking them. You don't have anyone to explain yourself to you, interrupt you or influence your words. It is such an amazing feeling for me to struggle with needing to talk or explain my feelings in person, but have them flow right from my pen to a page.
5. I now know that the moments we live in everyday are the ones we will eventually long for.
I love simple moments. I love sitting next to someone, looking at them, and realizing that this current moment is one that I will think about an hour from now, a day, month or years. It makes me cherish time with others so much more. I hold the simplest memories the closest. For instance, on a car ride with my roommates, listening to good music. No cares, just music and silence filled by laughs and singing. Or dinner with my entire family, or lunch with my grandma. Or maybe just the phone call with my significant other. The simplest moments are the ones that people long for in the end. The ones that they cling too. And I know this from first hand experience will love and loss. You have to live every moment with others like it is your last or like it is the best time you have ever had. Because one day you will not be able to share those moments and memories anymore.
